Wtf...omg... help!!!
I finally have a boyfriend that I am so sexually attracted to. He's had some hard times as I have in our past relationships. He is 38 and Im 34. So my sex drive is way way up. when we met we lived 3 hrs away from one another so when we saw eachother everyweekend it was "oh so amazing" Now that we live together, I have caught him masterbating in the shower and looking at porn.. I would say Im somewhat of a normal girlfriend, but I know wht bothers me and If he feels that he has to look at other things to get him sexually charged and not me. I find that there is a problem. I walk around in sexy underwear and bra and do things to "visually attract" him. Usually he just smiles and walks away. I have asked my closest guy friend about what age a mans libido goes, he said he and his wife have sex 4-5 times a week. But we are barely having it one time a week. We each have kids from different relationships that live with us, so every moment we can get alone I want to do it. He works outside so i understand him being tired and sweaty is understandable... but "all the time????" hmmmmm When i was previously married, at the end of our relationship i started to ignore my husband and find every excuse NOT to have sex with him. Perhaps Karma is biting me in the ass right now, because Im finally happy with someone and my sex drive is so high and he could deal with not doing "it" at all...
My self esteem isnt high to begin with and than to have to give him signs that I want to have sex "tonight" with him and set a date, only to have him fall asleep on the couch EVERY TIME WE PLAN IT. is really not good for me. I end up crying alone in my bed and than I get mad at him. I have asked friends what to do, and I have tried to be sexy, and initiate it as often as I could, but If im the one initiating it all the time i start to feel like he doesn't want me.
What do I do? am I asking for to much? I dont want sex 9 times a week I would be happy with 3 or even 2 times a week. HELP!!!!!!!!