Why do i totally and utterly hate myself?

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Background: Ever since I was a child, I've always been my own worst enemy. I've seen doctor after doctor and counsellor after counsellor, and nothing worked. I've been on medications for depression and anxiety, but that makes my symptoms worse. I cannot leave the house without fearing for my safety until I return there.

I hate my body, my image. I cannot wear any kinds of clothing without feeling some disgust or fear people will laugh at me. My life is collapsing around me, and I cannot achieve. I've tried all kinds of therapy, but nothing can help lift the feeling I'm a burden on everyone who knows me. I hate the fact I cannot afford food every week. I hate the fact I have Asperger Syndrome and I loathe the fact I cannot study or work. I cannot get along with many people, and I really hate everything I say, do and social interactions. I hate my instant anger and fury when things go wrong. I criticise myself for all mistakes, major and miniscule. I have no talents or skills that will be of any use.

What I can't understad is however hard I try, I cannot find a positive thing in this world.

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  • DubstepismyMJ
    9 years ago

    I highly, Highly recommend this book called "learned optimism" by Martin seligman. You Are Exactly the type of person to benefit from this book.

    Either buy it online or instores, or find it in your local library if its available.
    The best investment you can make is to yourself.

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  • Arm0se
    9 years ago

    I'd rather be with a super ugly chick than someone who's a total bitch. If people don't like you for your personality, don't keep them around, you don't need them.

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  • [Old Memory]
    9 years ago

    Having a negative attitude only will create a cycle on self induced disapointment.

    Find something that you like and find something to laugh at. There is never a reason to put yourself down. Fuck what other people think because their judgments do not matter and by agreeing with them you become them.

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  • JonMcJean
    9 years ago

    Hey, you shouldn't be so self loathing. Whatever people say you must always know that you're very pretty, inside or outside. I probably think this comment won't make a lot of good, but at least I tried.

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