Why do i get flustered by compliments if i'm an egoistic prick?
It isn't that I disagree with some compliments, I agree with a few of them. Some compliments I dont care about and dismiss them. But the ones that really matter to me, I get flustered. There are even a few rare compliments that I envision people shooting me with them. You would think by mentally playing out the scenario that I would get a little prepared to react or respond to them. But nope.
So when I get such a compliment that I don't dismiss, whether I expected it or not it doesn't matter. My mind shuts down, I dont say anything and lower my gaze. Believe it or not I would actually be much more comfortable if someone insulted me than give me a compliment!
What makes it worse is I'm a 26-yo dude. I even consider myself to be narcissistic and egoistic. So why the heck am I unable to handle compliments? Wtf