Why do i feel this way?

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Lately, better yet for a couple of months now I've been terribly sad inside and i keep telling myself tomorrow will get better, but my situation just seems to get worse everyday. what baffles me is that i don't know why i am sad. I feel my life is boring and empty.

i also like to mention that i used to smoke weed daily (sometime twice a day) since June, but i stopped last month. I'm at a new college and i was assigned to single room which i didn't like so i usually will smoke alone, watch movies and sleep. i feel there is too much going on in my head and i just want to stop the constant thinking.
I sometimes isolate myself because i feel there is nothing interesting about me, there are girls that want to get to know me or just talk to me but i start saying to myself there is nothing interesting about me and i have nothing to say, so whenever i'm around them it is always very awkward. I've gotten very paranoid and think everyone i walk by is talking about me, judging, or making fun of me which makes me even more depressed. I've loss my self confidence, developed a low self-esteem, and have become pessimistic. i know i have a problem because a year ago i wasn't like this, i was outgoing, funny, and happy. i thought maybe it's a result of my constant smoking(weed) because i know it does affect people differently so i quit smoking. it has been nearly a month and i'm still depressed. I started thinking again maybe its not the weed, maybe i do have a problem because i know plenty other people who smoke daily but they're very happy and not experiencing what i am going through (i.e my brother).
I hate who I've become and i want to go back to the old me.

Because you're in a single room at a new school 4
You're depressed, with time and positive thinking you will be fine 7
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Because of your previous weed addiction and the effect it had on you 5
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  • justanordinarygirl
    12 years ago

    I can really relate to you in many ways. I sort of feel like I changed a lot over the years as well. I just think that it's a matter of finding something that makes you happy, discovering the thing that really makes life worth living. Whether it be a significant other, a hobby, or virtually anything. It sounds to me that you have yet to find that one thing that makes you think "damn, I'm living a good life." It'll take some time, but eventually you'll find it. In the mean time, if you pick up smoking again, smoke a bowl for me :)

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  • dom180
    12 years ago

    The first thing I thought was either withdrawal due to over-dependance on the weed, or the side-effect of depression that it sometimes gives. That should go in time.

    I'm not demonising weed here, just talking facts. Some people don't seem to have those effects, some do. It could be something else.

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