Why do i feel like i'm missing out?

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I'm 18 and finished sixth form college in july. I applied for uni last yr, but withdrew my application in Feb, after feeling like it just wasnt for me. I started an apprenticeship in business admin in August and all of my friends went off to uni in September.

I also withdrew my uni application because of the financial side to it. I've see what debt can do to people and I don't want to end up like that.

Just lately, I feel like I'm missing out on living my life.

I'm 18, never had a proper boyfriend, don't go out, because i've got no-one to go with and by the time I get home from work I'm too tired. I just feel like I'm somehow wasting my life, just living a passive existence, letting everything just slip past in a blur.

It's like I'm watching someone else live my life thinking....now why didn't you take that opportunity, or, what did you do that for?

I feel detached from reality and don't know how to grasp it again. I'm not even sure how to begin the chase to catch up with reality again.

I really don't know what to do anymore...

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  • [Old Memory]
    14 years ago

    At 18 you are not far behind anything - your adult life is just starting. Relax a bit. You made a decision that seemed right at the time. If you are reconsidering it - do - and make a plan for something better. But do not think of yourself as locked into the decision you made to try a different route than university.

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  • PoisonFlowers
    14 years ago

    Hey, I hope this isn't a years old story that no-one commented on...

    How are you doing nowadays? I'm in a similar sort of situation really. the sixth form college, the deciding to not go... I've reapplied.

    The loneliness and exhaustion seem to be sapping your soul. It doesn't have to be this way. You don't have to be passive. Look up free courses and stuff nearby and apply. It doesn't matter if it's not something you think will be necessary for your life in the future. It's for now. It's a good way to meet friends too.

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  • blondbond69
    11 years ago

    I'm 19 and I feel the same. I can feel myself thinking and realizing I let opportunities slip out of my hands so easily and lives speeding by. Its a blur. I have no real friends and my bf just drags me down. Depression hurts

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  • dragonballz
    13 years ago

    if you got your degree its not to late to uni your only 18 so go for it your still younge

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