Why did i orgasm when i was raped?

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When I was 11, I was raped. Back then I had no idea what an orgasm was, but this weird rush of - I wouldn’t call it pleasure, but close - came over me for a split second before being completely overtaken by fear again. As I grew up, I learned what an orgasm was and what it felt like. And now whenever I orgasm I feel sick to my stomach because of it. Like, how can something that changed your life for the worst, make you feel good in any way whatsoever? I hate myself for this and I hate myself for asking this. I apologize in advance if this triggers anybody or upsets someone. I really just want answers, and, to feel normal after almost 16 years of berating myself.

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  • Blabla123
    6 years ago

    It is biological reaction

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    • RoseIsabella
      6 years ago

      ... like when someone sticks a finger down their throat and throws up.

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  • Bailey_Rose
    6 years ago

    Generally when somebody that young is raped, it is usually at the hands of a family member or family friend. These encounters are often times not violent because the victim trusts the perpetrator. Therefore, there is no need to use force or violence when committing the rape. A child that young cannot legally consent to sexual intercourse. The victim may be bribed, or coerced, with a reward or treat of some sort. So, the Victim gives in. Even though the victim gives in, it is still rape on the part of the perpetrator. Even if the child may feel a sense of orgasmic pleasure, it is still rape regardless. When I was 12 years old I was raped by a female "friend" who was about 4 years older than I was. This was just prior to me receiving "The talk" from my parents. So, I had no idea what sex really involved. Anyway, I trusted her. We were at her house on a Saturday watching movies like we'd done in the past. I didn't know her parents would be gone all day. She led me to her room, said we were going to "play around" Before I knew it I was on my back and she was on top of me. I didn't understand what was going on at that exact moment. I thought I'd just peed in her and that it felt good. Turns out I ejaculated in her and she became pregnant......They sued. We counter sued. But my point being, For years and years after that, after I was aware of what sex really was and understood what rape was, I realized I'd been raped. After that, for years, whenever I would be with a woman and had an orgasm, I'd get violently sick to my stomach. It also took me years to get over the psychological damage of associating an orgasm with rape. Mainly because I put off seeing a professional for so long. I hope you find the strength to get over this some day. And I definitely encourage you to talk to a professional to help you get over this. Sex should be a pleasurable thing that should be enjoyed and not feared.

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  • Imsoawkward
    6 years ago

    How did he do it

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  • Topshelf1406
    6 years ago

    I was also raped around that age and during the rape I became aroused and eventually had an orgasm even though I did not want what was happening. It took me such a long time to be able to accept that it is an involuntary reaction that comes from the same part of your brain that controls breathing. I am sorry that this happened to you but it’s nice to know I’m not alone.

    Here’s an article that helped me a lot:
    https://www.popsci.com/science/article/2013-05/science-arousal-during-rape

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  • rayb12
    6 years ago

    You have a lot of nerve endings in those areas that cause sexual stimulation and orgasm. None of this is personal

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  • Acollegeguy
    6 years ago

    I think you had an orgasm because you were probably going through puberty or he got you in a good place. I think you should talk to a professional about this. Either that or try to forget about it. I'm not trying to be a cunt and sorry if you thought I was. Just making a point

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