Where to now?

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For the past 7 years I have lived two completely separate lives. My family, friends and coworkers have absolutely no idea what goes on in my 'real job'. I've had to keep these two separate for the safety of those around me. I have always been extremely intelligent. I learn very quickly and once I learn something it bores me. This is a serious problem and is responsible for my current situation.

The secrecy and details of my 'real job' have made me into a soulless monster. I find that I no longer care about anyone or anything, including myself. While this is ideal for certain things, it has created a huge void between myself and those I once loved. I feel the best course of action now is to abandon everything I cared about and disappear fully into my other life. I know it would be devastating to my family but I can easily look past that.

I know this is far from normal but I’m hoping someone out there has had a similar experience and can provide insight.

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    Definatly batman

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  • orchid1227
    14 years ago

    Batman?

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  • lawlawl
    14 years ago

    Are you a prostitute?

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  • Avant-Garde
    10 years ago

    Are you working in espionage? Maybe, you should fully immerse yourself into this other job. I could make a more concrete decision if I knew what this was. Oh well. If you don't think the people you know would understand than cut off ties from them and disappear.

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  • callb4ucome
    11 years ago

    What are the first 2 letters of this so called job?

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  • imustbnutz
    12 years ago

    Hitman?..or male escort? I think the first definitely would need some monster element to it. But to be an escort you have to have alot excess love to share....

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  • shade_ilmaendu
    12 years ago

    I'm thinking a violent job. But you are not a soulless monster. Were all good... And were all evil. That's just human nature.

    What you need to do is find someone you can trust that you can talk to about this shit... Sounds like it's gonna be tough to figure out on your own, but don't give up on the things you care about :)

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  • boys-are-toys
    13 years ago

    spy!!

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  • oquenbe
    14 years ago

    i was thinking stripper but it could be a hooker.......hmmm i wonder

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  • joliegems
    14 years ago

    If you are so intelligent why haven't you figured out a solution? I don't think any of us pions on here can help you.

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  • honeybuns
    14 years ago

    You're already anonymous so what the hell is you're real job?

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  • Gtown
    14 years ago

    Do you love your job more than your family? If you did I don't think you would have even asked this question on here. I would try and find another line of work if possible.

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  • gunfreak
    14 years ago

    what the hell is your real job!?

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  • TrueFalse
    14 years ago

    Of course, you'll just have to stay with your family. If your job has already made you this "Soulless Monster," then it's real intention is done.

    If you go away, how much worse can you get?

    Try to get back with them [your family, closest friends & such]. It may not be that easy, but your sanity is more important. Don't let this "job" of yours take over your life.

    Best wishes from here. :)

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  • The_Baron
    15 years ago

    Awww c'mon you have to tell us what the 'job' is. Hooker? Hitman? Arms dealer?

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  • logchuck
    15 years ago

    yeah I have.. it turns out I was depressed... maybe your are too becuase I didnt even know I was depressed

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