What to tell my gf bout me being transgender and wanting her to stay
I recently came out as transgender. Ive been dealing with this for years, which lead to drugs and multiple failed suicide attempts. I remember being 5and wishing i woke up as a girl. Well now ive decided its time, ive told friends,family, etc. Alot of female friends were not suprised, as im very feminine in the stuff i wear and how i move. I plan on living as a woman full time in nov. My problem is telling my gf. We have been dating over a year, im in love w her big time, her w me also.she is unfortunately in jail till between oct and feb.2018. Depending on her behaviour. Made some mistakes, but i stayed w her, support her, etc. She only has a sister for family, plus friends, but mostly me and my fam. Well i had told her several times over last summer i would love to wake up looking like her, or if i won the lottery, id get a sex change to look like jennifer lawerence. Well i started sharing clothes w her, then i told her i wear womens underwear mostly, and she liked it. We shared underwear, then makeup, i wear her perfume. She is very receptive to this. During the summer i asked if she d make me over as a woman. We bought clothes, i shaved, and she had a wig that she cut and tied it up with my length, did my makeup, we bought me a body shaping corset. We went to the mall, and i felt normal. Like i felt i could do this. Everyone thought we were sisters or gay. She said that id make a cute girl if i chose to change sexes. Im now on hormones, and have 2surgeries scheduled for later in the year. I know our relationship has grown stronger and i dont think she will be upset, as i think she might have an idea, but i dont want her to break up with me, nor do i just want to be friends. I dont plan on getting re assignment surgery, as i like my sex life w her. I emailed her and told her i needed to speak w her. Nothing bad, but that its important. Now im worried as hell. I know that no matter what she will insist i transition. I am dealing w alot, but how do i approach this?