What's wrong with me? or is there anything wrong at all?

Let me tell you one thing you can make friends with animals and marrie them or suck their animalistic bool.you are well come.

this is exactly what I go through ...

Yup go to college. It sounds like you are spending too much time in your head. It is important to get out and keep busy when you feel like that - to prevent yourself from spiralling down into depression. Get out, eat healthy, be healthy, and moderately busy. Try to 'change the channel' as if your thoughts are a radio station when you start to tear yourself down. Learn it now, when you're young. If you let yourself get in the habit of indulginging in negative thinking it will be harder to fight off throughout your life. GOOD luck & look after yourself, none of us are perfect!

I agree with Bronte. Many colleges and almost all Universities offer free psychological services for students who are stressed out or depressed.

Going to college, no lie, will almost cure this problem I guarantee. Meeting tons of people, discovering things about yourself, and free psychological help. I cannot stress enough that you will meet other students that are introverted just like you and are also inexperienced with boys. My self-esteem definitely took a turn for the better when I went away to college because I worked hard and met many people. It's the only time in your life that you literally can do whatever you want. You can study abroad in any country, join any crazy club, attend any crazy party, and study whatever the hell you want. What better way to discover yourself than this?

@bronte_91 thanks so much. it makes me feel better that I'm not completely alone in this. this is def the most real advise I've gotten on here thus far. thanks. I will def take your advise.

I'm 18 too and I think it is fairly normal to want to distance yourself from your parents at this age. This is especially true if you have strict or controlling parents. I have never had a boyfriend either and most of my friends are in the same boat so that makes it difficult to meet new people. I pretty certain that your college will have a counsellor that you could go and see and not have tell anyone about. It is part of there job to make sure everything you discuss with them is confidential (unless they think you could harm yourself or others) which isn't the case for you. Personally I think it would ba good idea to discuss your issues with your parents. I'm sure they would like to know so that they can be there for you and support you :)

I know exactly how you feel and it is important to be kinder to yourself. Good luck with college and take care!

im almost tearing up as I type this. you guys have given me great advice. i do think that i need to get out of my household and go away to college. I was having trouble in deciding which school to go to and I think Im deciding to leave nyc. I want to see a therapist but I dont want people to think that I'm crazy or something. is there a way that I can go to a therapist without my parents knowing, seeing that im on their health insurance.

I believe what the first two comments say. You sound like a wonderful woman but your way to hard on yourself. Go to college and continue being yourself. Don't try to make anyone happy but yourself! Do what you want for you! You will be just fine.. Good luck and let us know how you are.

You need to gain more confidence in yourself. You probably are a very sweet person, but it sounds like you're going into depression to. Maybe talk to a theripist or a doctor about it, that might help.

Are you going away to college? Go to college and when you start experiencing new things without your parents breathing down your throat, you may find happiness.