What's the point in loving?

I've never once had a crush on anybody. I've had a few girlfriends but have broken up with them all. My last girlfriend, I broke up with and she didn't take it too well. It was actually just a great relief to get her out of my life and leave me alone. A partner to me just seems like someone to leech off your life, dreams, and aspirations by limiting your choices through obligation.
I happen to have a good handful of friends. I used to only have one friend who has been my best friend since kindergarten, but we eventually stopped hanging out outside of school. All my other friends, I don't bother seeing outside of school. Actually, I don't plan to ever see any of them ever again now that I'm graduating and have been accepted into college. I don't really care.
It gets very awkward when my mom brings up the question "How would you feel if I died" or when my dad brings up the question "How would it feel if I moved away" since my father and mother haven't been on great terms but aren't divorced, I don't know how to really answer. All I can say is, whatever's fine.
I don't really care about the well being of anybody around me. I can't see anything besides the inconveniences and benefits of one of my parent's or friends dying. All I really care about is furthering my education and career choice.

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Comments ( 12 )
  • Sil3nt_The_Apathetic

    The purpose of loving is to alter your way of thinking. Mainly so you stray away from thoughts such as; What's the purpose of life? How was the universe created? And my personal favourite; How many licks does it take to get to the tootsie roll center of a tootsie pop?

    ^--- Seriously.

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  • Love is an illusion and weakness.

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  • AbnormalAnonymous

    Love is not a weakness. Love gives strength. It looks like you haven't found a person who is important to you, and such. Don't hate on those who are couples. Couples are annoying, yes, maybe because they're the only ones who are 'currently' thriving on their affection, but,don't hate them, they're just expressing themselves, like how people cry when they're sad.

    I have pretty much a good deal of your personality (apathetic towards others sometimes) but dude, you better brush up on that attitude. Don't think that caring about others is useless, dude, that's just totally wrong. Maybe you lack emotion, I dunno. Just don't be pathetically ignorant until you lose someone you actually cared about one day. Try, try, try and try to reconcile your humane emotions.

    If you can't, I guess just pretend to care.

    When you say 'leech', I assume that you're talking about marriage, no? That;s another story, haha, it's called a responsibility of raising a family and giving the best to your next generation and helping mankind to survive.

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  • Maryam

    NORMAL :p

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  • Serenity16

    i feel that love is just a way to preserve the human race. if you look in relationships, love doesn't last for ever (i mean in real situations,not in dramas) plus one can feel great pain because of someone they love. love can endanger your life. love most likely makes you weaker, then stronger.
    it's also pretty hard to figure out real love from fake one. (opinion)

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  • darkmay7

    dude i know how you feel. i feel the same. its better not to feel anymore at least you wont feel pain.

    i mean u gotta think about youself too. hey in this world we are all resources of each other. we used each other that is to have company, someone to talk to or use them for our advantage like hooking each other up with a job or some tickets etc.

    or whatever.

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  • Well you've had pretty poor examples in your parents. And you've had to pull back from them emotionally for obvious reasons. But you have and do know friendship. And in time you may warm up.

    Or you could get a bit of help.

    Or you could go through life a cold fish. Bitter. Negative. Your decision. Your loss if you do.

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  • freeatheart

    Its just a bit sad (from your parents perspective) that you dont need anyone.
    Im sure it is only because you are going through a phase in your life where you cant see anything but yourself, your future.

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  • stjimmy

    This is a personality disorder. It's also commonly associated with a TBI (Traumatic Brain Injury). You should go to a doctor and/or a psychotherapist to get it all sorted out. If you feel your life is lacking something then you certainly should go because they might be able to help you.

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  • alaisha83

    Two things:

    First, consider the impact that your parent's relationship (or any other influential source) is having on you emotionally.

    Second, consider what your goals are in life. If you are inspired or driven to have a career, then family and love come second to that. Whatever your dream is, perhaps you feel there is something you need to accomplish.

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  • wschnoobs

    so u can get sum

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  • Ambiguity

    I wouldnt really call this normal, but i feel you man, in the world we live in today, we need to be more independent but at such a young age, whether you like it or not you need your parents and someone to lean on more than anything.

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