What's the point in loving?
I've never once had a crush on anybody. I've had a few girlfriends but have broken up with them all. My last girlfriend, I broke up with and she didn't take it too well. It was actually just a great relief to get her out of my life and leave me alone. A partner to me just seems like someone to leech off your life, dreams, and aspirations by limiting your choices through obligation.
I happen to have a good handful of friends. I used to only have one friend who has been my best friend since kindergarten, but we eventually stopped hanging out outside of school. All my other friends, I don't bother seeing outside of school. Actually, I don't plan to ever see any of them ever again now that I'm graduating and have been accepted into college. I don't really care.
It gets very awkward when my mom brings up the question "How would you feel if I died" or when my dad brings up the question "How would it feel if I moved away" since my father and mother haven't been on great terms but aren't divorced, I don't know how to really answer. All I can say is, whatever's fine.
I don't really care about the well being of anybody around me. I can't see anything besides the inconveniences and benefits of one of my parent's or friends dying. All I really care about is furthering my education and career choice.