What do i feel?

I don`t know what i feel for my friend, she is a female and i am a male, and to say it this way, i won`t try to make our relasionship deeper, but i wouldn`t mind if it happened. everyone tells us we should be a couple, she says thats never gonna happen.
When i see she is online on MSN i feel happy, when she start to chat with me i am over joyed, and we tell ecother that we love echother, but this is in a friend way, and only online.
Sh often uses me as her pillow, meaning that she leans on me, and uses my arm as a blanket, wich also makes me very happy.
I have a very hard time understanding body langauge, so for all i know, unless she says to my face that she loves me in a romantic way, i would never understand.
So what do i feel? Comments are welcome, and please, don`t troll, that would break my heart

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Something romantic 6
You are in love 10
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Comments ( 21 )
  • spazatikal

    If she has already said "it's never gonna happen" I wouldn't try anything. Sometimes, girls just don't like their good friends in "that way." I think it's a little messed up that she knows how you feel (i'm guessing she does if she really said it won't happen) but yet she uses you as a pillow and says I love you, even just as friends.

    I had this great friend for 3 years, and for the longest time I didn't know he liked me, until I went over to his house, got drunk and pierced my nose and finger, and spray painted a dresser (it came out so beautiful!), and he held me up and said that he wanted to be with me. And since then, it was never the same. I couldn't stand having him touch me, even hugs are awkward now.

    Honestly, it's your call, not every girl is the same. But no matter how much you may love her, things will crumble if you tell her and she doesn't feel the same.

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    • Store210

      she haven`t said it to me, she said it to the people suggesting it, i feel like i should protect her, and i don`t want to do anything that can destroy our relastionship, all i want is for her to be happy, that is all i am certain of at the moment

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      • spazatikal

        Even so, by her saying it in general should say the same thing. Play around. Play truth or dare. It might seem childish, but it's fun and an excuse to ask her how she truly, honestly feels about you but don't say it in a way that will make it obvious...?

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        • Store210

          Maybe i will do something like this, but for now i just want to cheer her up, she has experienced something really sad, and i want her to smile again, the worst thing i know is when my friends can`t smile

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          • spazatikal

            You're a very caring and kind-hearted person, and she's very lucky to have someone like you in her life. Good luck!

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            • Store210

              well, thank you
              i am not sure what else i should say

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  • SMALLS

    you should tell her that you have a hard time understanding body language, it could avoid situations, such as her thinking you're not interested and could improve your communication...but i think you definitely have some strong feelings for her

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    • Store210

      she knows it, she knows me better than anyone, she would know that, wouldn`t she

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  • fucksleep

    I would ask her, before confessing any feelings yourself, on what exactly your relationship is.

    If you bombard her with all your feelings that are not mutual, she will feel very uncomfortable with you.

    You should just try find out about how she feels about you before making any moves.

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    • Store210

      That is acualy quite helpfull

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      • Captain_Kegstand

        I don't feel the need to make my own comment, because fucksleep covered pretty much exactly my thoughts.

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        • Store210

          I read your comment, and i thought what the F**k is Fucksleep, then i discovered it was the original comments creator

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          • Captain_Kegstand

            lolz I can see how that would be confusing!

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  • Shackleford96

    If she died tomorrow, would you regret not having tried something more with her?

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    • Store210

      Now you made me paranoid that she is going to die, she just lost her grandmother so now i have a stronger belive, I am literaly crying thinking that she may die

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      • Shackleford96

        I am sorry, I did not mean to make you cry. Don't worry though, I'm sure she will be alright.

        Maybe you should ask her out then and tell her that you have serious feelings for her as more than just friends. What have you got to lose; life is too short.

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        • Store210

          And for making me cry, don`t wory, its good to cry once in a while, i haven`t cried in 5 years

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          • Shackleford96

            Wow, you must really care about this girl. I hope everything works out for you and that she realizes what a great guy she has with you.

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            • Store210

              I trust her with my life.
              i want to make sure she is happy, but at the same time i want her to choose herself who she wants for a partner

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        • Store210

          This pool is for me to understand if i have mroe serius feelings, and trust me, i would, if i had the balls, she knows me, she trusts me, and i trust her, to tell her something like that would be as hard for me as walking on dental flass for you, and it must be strung in mid air

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    • Store210

      That is a question that you never know until it happens, but maybe yes

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