What do i do?

Dude... ouch.
You should communicate with more people over the internet. Hopefully it's a bit different from the people you describe in your story. Just go chat with random people or go join a forum...
The people at your school are all pretty much douche bags. Finding some friend over the internet always helps.

Ditch these people you call your friends, and look for someone who would visit you in the ER and show sympathy for you. Don't hurt yourself and certainly no suicide. You hit the nail on the head that people have it worse off than you do. Be happy for what you have, instead of depressed about what you don't. Many people take for granted how fortunate they are even to have a computer and the ability to type on it.

your "friend" is a jerk. she's not a real friend.

Maybe they're avoiding you and not being your friend cuz they're freaked out by your behavior, but they should still talk to you instead of ignore you

Maybe they said "oh" because they assumed you were in for trying to kill yourself again.

It's okay to cut back friends if they aren't friends. One thing I notice with kids these days is they're so concerned about amassing "friends" that it doesn't even seem to matter who's real and who isn't. Even if it means starting over with no friends at all, that's better than having fake friends who are potentially detrimental to your psychological/emotional well-being.

Im 38. Ive had problems with depression. My illegal husband has bipolar disorder. People are afraid of people with depression. You are young and it gets easier with age to understand that true friends are NOT friends when its convenient for them. They are friends unconditionally. I would say that either your friends are selfish or they dont understand what you are going through and so they dont know how to react. But there is no excuse for them to respond to your circumstances with an "oh". Thats pretty crappy. Being a teenager is difficult in itself. Im very sorry to hear that you are feeling alone.

I've been in your exact same situations,
(bar the falling asleep at the wheel bit)
I used to self harm and the works,
it used to remind me i was still... alive?

It doesn't work in the end though does it?
Nothing's set in stone in this life,
you just gotta ride it out.

You never know how you could end up, happiness might just be around the corner? It takes work though
Happiness just doesn't 'appear' just like that, you've gotta work for it
set a goal, and achieve it!

Maybe you should lay all this down with your friends, just tell them how it is, and wether they are willing to make the commitment to give a little to help you,
and if not,
sod them! You'll find much better friends!

Good Luck & I wish you all the best in life
x

Just don't talk to them anymore. I don't talk to a lot of girls. I dont have many friends But my friends that I do have care about me. I have mostly guy friends though.Find new friends. There are more people out there then a couple of b*tches.

awwwwwww.. well i just graduated this year 2 . your friends suck leave them alone and make new ones...ill be more then glad to be your friend^_^ email me if you need anything ANYTHING.. and plzz dont cut your self anymore that causes permanent scaring both physically and mentally

your friends suck

believe me mine suck and they are better than yours

dont worry it happen

the best thing to do is believe in karma and find at least one person in life that matters

Sweety those aren't friends. I'm also in high school and i've been through a similar situation. Though i've never cut myself or hurt myself, there have been times when i've wanted to. Life is frustrating at this age and I found my self spiraling downward and sinking deeper into depression. Depression is nothing to play with. Since I dont have parents that im close with and that I can share my pain with, I kind of just live life depressed. But day by day I get better. Sometimes the best medecince that can be given is the medecine that comes from yourself. I have only one friend and shes been through alot. She is the reason why im getting on track. You need to find someone who will actually give you the time of day and obviously those chicks are not the ones.

thanks for the advice and im honestly not trying to be rude or anything but..
lawliett: you tell me to try to have fun with my friends and talk about cheery things but it's not that easy. depression isn't something that u just say "i'm gonna change how i feel." it's more than that. it's programmed into your brain which is what people who don't have depression don't understand. And if u do then u understand. i've tried to get better but when my medication and my therapy isn't working. that's what killed me the most with my friends. and u say it's draining for them. and i know that but that doesn't mean they have to be rude. if i get depressed because of my friends then of course im gonna look to my friends for help. i didn't want them checking up on me or trying to take care of me, i just wanted them to treat me like they did there other friends and show that they actually cared somewhat since i definitely didnt get that at all.

Gonna be brutally honest here... don't let it depress you. Most people don't have a very high tolerance for friends who are emotionally draining. We can help out every once in a while and cheer you up but if it is a day to day thing you may very well be burdening your friends, which will distance them from you.

If you are harming yourself or feeling depressed all the time, that is NOT normal... and you should think about seeing a mental health professional to help you cope with your depression -- it really does help.

If your parents aren't into therapy and won't let you go... try MoodGym.com ... it will help you learn about irrational thoughts and how to combat them.

I have been in both positions - very depressed & suicidal, and the friend to someone very depressed and suicidal. it is VERY draining. Try to have fun with your friends, and talk about cheery things. It might just make you feel better.

You should see better friends esp. guy friends. Usually, guys can understand girls' feelings better than other girls can. I had a friend (female) who attempted suicide and I was able to comfort her. Sadly, most of her other friends abandoned her.

Alright I'm sorry I'm sure your really emotional (I've been depressed before) and everything but you shouldn't tell people that you've cut yourself because people see that as a cry for attention or at least most do, and there's not much you can do about it. Also again I'm not trying to be mean but you may want to see a counselor or a psychologist to sort out your problems (they helped me alot when I was depressed) And as for the caring most friends are like that when you say that you have emotional problems because they think that everything that's wrong you've simply made up or done to yourself for attention (not saying that you do or anything that's just the public view on people like you and how I was) my suggestion is just stop asking for help or care from people unless it's COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY neccesary like if your really dieing not just mentally (like I said get some help from professionals, they helped me I'm sure they can help you)

I hope you feel better in the future and good luck with your friends :D

Um your story is kinda confusing, but its your senior year stick in there you only have half a year left.
As for your friends.... it kinda seems like you over do everything. stop cutting yourself cuz yes most people do think its for attention. Make an effort to talk to them again. Dont get mad at them and ignore them back, that solves nothing.