What can i do?

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actually i don't know how to start.my story is truely terrible; it's a story of an endless pain.i'm 25 gay from egypt and unfortunately so many people think that gay people are sinful and should be ashamed. nobody knows that being a gay is not only a sexual desire to have a relationship with someone of the same sex. actually being a gay controls my feelings and this is the worst feeling of all; to have the body of a man and the feeling of a girl does.this is horrible.so many times i fall in love with one of my friends who don't know anything about my being gay. these days i'm in love with someone who doesn't know anything about my gayness and dosen't expect that a male could love him just like a girl.i can't get rid of his love;it's controling me.i can't even speak about it.i really don't know what to do. i need help.

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  • YouWillNeverKnow
    6 years ago

    I wish that I had some helpful advice but all that I can offer is prayer that things work out. It would be wonderful if you came to find that he's also in love with you. Even as unlikely as it may seem there could be a chance and I promise that I will pray for the two of you to fall in love and start a relationship together! I really hope that it all works out!

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  • Bootygopop
    12 years ago

    Maybe u should love someone who is also gay not a straight man.

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  • Punk22
    14 years ago

    oh my previous comment was general and not specifically @ oskilover18... peace!

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  • yukiru
    14 years ago

    mmmmm i think u should just let him know that u r gay:{ be honest, and if he respect u even as a freind he wouldt hate u or discontinue the friendship. if he did ,then... hes the wrong person to love. or u dont have to tell him that u love him right at the moment because he might be able to accept the change so fast, just let him no how u r, and later on when u think hes ready let him no how u feel :) omy this is so sweet lol xD goodluck

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  • lwinnchick
    14 years ago

    i'm so sorry. thats terrible.

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  • oskilover18
    15 years ago

    Yikes. I don't really know what to tell you. Having read a few books about particular Arab cultures it sounds like you can't really follow the advice of many of these commentators, but I don't know how strict the culture of your close circle is. Honestly, I would suggest moving so you could be yourself, but I can't imagine how anyone could leave behind their family and life. I'm sorry my words haven't really been helpful.

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    • Punk22
      14 years ago

      well i can totally relate, im also an Arab and a lesbian... pffft i dunno what to tell u really, it sucks not being able to love who ever u want.. thank god i never loved a straight girl even though i went to an all girls schools all my life even at uni! and i was able to have a really close group of friends who r just like me n of different ages and cultures and i can hang out with them n talk about things that straight ppl wont get so i think im pretty lucky in that coz it kept me from goin crazy.. well why dont u look around in egypt coz there is a big LGBT community out there u just look for them and be friends with some start with facebook hehe but dont trust just about anyone just get to know where they hang out and if there is any underground scene somewhere... and then just stick to loving someone who u know is gay, although its limiting but it'll save u a lot of heart ache.. i do understand how hard it is to leave ur family coz even though i would love to move somewhere else that is more tolerant, the idea of leaving my family behind saddens me terribly! well anyway good luck with whatever u do!

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    • mady375
      14 years ago

      hi there,
      u know i'm that egyptian gay who wrote about his painful story of being a gay
      thanks alot for ur advice and i really appreciate it when somebody shows me that he or she cares for the others.
      actually it seems to me that u can understand the social conditions here in egypt that's why u adviced me not tell anybody about it
      but the idea of leaving egypt is too difficult toonot only becuase leaving the family but also for other reasons like the financial propblems i might face etc..
      any way thanks alot

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  • shadow1004
    15 years ago

    listen... i know you live with constant pain...
    if you learn to how not to give ears to them... we(straight guys) dont know what like to be gay; try having female friends usually they are more accepting (at least where i live)
    i know you arent "normal" in their eyes just for the fact of your brain working in a simmilar way of the womans brain both sides of the brain work in cooperation? we straigt men only use one more than the other...
    (its been proved "gay's" brain work simmilarly to the woman's brain...)

    try going to U.S.A they are more accepting and you could sue them if they make anny offence to you there life... in america the law has strong influence on the peoples lifes...
    if a afro-american person get called black in an insulting way they have to pay a fine hope i have helped in anyway... :)

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    • Chill_Pill
      14 years ago

      Uh... in the US if someone is called black in an insulting way we don't have to pay a fine lmfao where did you get that from??? And it depends on what state and then the city within the state as to the acceptance of gay people. While the US seems to have a good rep for these tolerance issues (apparently) there are still many many MANY many places that do not share in this aspect!

      As far as the subject at hand, I feel deeply sad for you! I wish there was something to say that could help. I am in agreement that female companionship is a good thing to have, since we females are more open to alternative lifestyles (in general, not an end-all-be-all definitive). Be safe! And I suggest that you not make a move on your friend until you can be sure they wont wound you externally and internally.

      Much Love
      ~Peace~

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  • XxXGummiXxXBearXxX
    15 years ago

    Thats really difficult. Maybe you should just tell him or maybe you should just find someone nice who will listen to you. Thats what you really need.
    I've known plenty of people who were gay. You feel alot better when you can comfortably tell someone what you're feeling.

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  • NeoFalcon
    15 years ago

    That is one tiny closet you live in.

    If you are feeling confident - I suggest you should talk to someone about this in person.

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  • [Old Memory]
    15 years ago

    I dont think he should come clean they probably get stoned to death for that shit over there. Just save up your pennies and go to the USA their doctors are used to doing this operation for a sex change and then go back and dont say anything and just fuk all the blokes you wanted to lol

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    • sapincher
      14 years ago

      Yeah because being gay means you need a sex change operation. Obviously.

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  • moepropane
    15 years ago

    thats actully rele sad, but maybe u shuld just come clean to everyone about being gay

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    • mady375
      15 years ago

      thanks alot for the advice. sometimes i talk to people about it but the reaction is usually very aggressive. and the real problem is related to the idea of love; i'm in love with someone who doesn't know anything about it and i really love him

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  • YOURaFREAK
    14 years ago

    Why the fuckis everyone gay??? being gay is gross when your a guy!!! why would you want anothe guy when there is such other fine vagina out there it isnt even funny!!!! i just dont understand

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