What’s wrong with me
I don’t have any friends or a boyfriend and no one seems to want to form relationships with me.
I can make conversation with people and am fairly confident when it comes to public speaking or discussing my projects/ideas and I can make stupid small talk with people but I only have acquaintances and no friends.
I watch other people and their relationships just seem so warm and tender in ways I could never imagine. It is little things. Like today i saw a girl on the bus leaning against her boyfriends shoulder and playing with his hair. Or I see people hug their friends in the street.
I’ve never had a friendship or relationship like that. I meet people once at work or at uni and maybe have a good conversation or two but then they choose not to see me in a social setting. What makes them pick other people over me?
I am confident and friendly in public and I start conversations even when they don’t seem too eager or friendly but I’m not over the top or clingy. Why can’t I form relationships that aren’t superficial and based on work or study?