Weird feeling that i want to be pregnant?
I am 19 and in college, and have only been with my boyfriend for 7 months. He is not in school and works minimum wage - not to mention we live 30 miles apart and only see each other once a week. If I got pregnant it would be REALLY bad for us both.
But when we have sex, when we do the pull out method... I secretly hope for it to fail. I feel like I want him to get me pregnant. I am even on birth control but I have this urge, this hope that he'll get me pregnant. I wouldn't tell him, he may take it the wrong way. I don't even want to have and raise a baby right now,, it would be destructive to my, my boyfriend's and this baby's life. But this strange urge seems to disregard that...
Actually, a year or so ago I was with another guy and we did have a pregnancy scare (turns missing a birth control pill messed up my period but it APPEARED I could have been pregnant) but, I took pregnancy tests and when they came out NEGATIVE... alongside the relief was disappointment. I had just turned 18 but again, had that weird craving to be pregnant. (though I am very happy that never happened!!!)
is it normal to feel this way??