Weard feelings
well lately i've felt the need to hug my mom more and more, i think it's because im turning 17 soon. when i was younger it was all about partys, boys and smoking, ahem... well luckly don't do it anymore but now i feel like i can't hug her like i use to. It's like i'm trying to hold on to my childhood, cuz when i am with her i'm 4, and i love it, it's an innocent time... This morning I told her, "mom, i'm turning 17 soon." and she answered, "that's great sweetheart" and i started to cry but she didn't see. I'm starting to think that... i dont know.. help... wanna know something else? at the same time i'm thinking about a husband, kids, house and shit. WHAT THE FUCK!!!