Was it rape
I feel a little guilty about it but she didn't seem to mind.. I picked up this punk rocker girl in a club in South America.. I don't speak spanish and she doesn't speak english but we danced together and got pretty lit [i think she was a bit more lit than me, drinking out of her friend's cups] and she ended up pulling me out of the club... even though my hotel was only 2 blocks away it took us a little while and a half block cab ride to find it. we got up to my room and i had a bottle of scotch already going in there which we both sipped; we made out at the desk then she motioned for me to pull the bed out of the couch, she didn't realize there was a separate bedroom.. so she jumped in the bed and we fooled around and i went down on her.. i had let her lead since we couldn't communicate so well, she took her own clothes off [except i took her big punk boots off]..
anyway the heart of the matter, while we were fooling around i was too drunk to get fully hard.. she pulled me onto her but i couldn't get it going and she asked in broken english 'whats wrong' and i explained 'mas whiskey y mota'.. so after a while i was really crazy horny but couldn't get it up so we fell asleep.. i woke up about 30-40 minutes later and just layed there looking at her beautiful smooth brown skin, her skinny but curvy latin form.. her mohawk and small features drive me crazy.. and her nice little.. so after struggling with my conscience for a few minutes i grabbed one of the condoms i had brought to the bed when we were first starting.. i tried to wake her up and she would open her eyes a little and then go back to sleep.. as soon as i put it inside her she really woke up and then she pulled me onto her, which was a relief.. and i had been so wound up that i climaxed almost immediately.. so I feel a sense of guilt both for putting it in her while she was partially conscious but also for not doing such a good job once I got started because i was so aroused.. I don't think i've come that fast for 10 years.. we ended up spending the rest of the weekend together as i don't think she really has that many options for where to go except for club owners and her fellow punk rock family..
Right now I wouldn't have done it.. And in fact later that night I went in the bathroom and took care of it myself instead of going at it again with her, as i had sobered up some and started to feel guilty..