Wanting to stay away from the one you " love " ????????????

i had no idea what i felt towards her but , as i described it to my friends they said i'm in love .

but , no one knows im in love with her , in fact they have no idea that i'm in love even though her & i are in the same class

. im that good at hiding my feelings

if any guy talks to her it pisses me off , and i KNOW that i would literally take a bullet for her ( well i would do that for any girl , so that doesn't count ) .
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" i know that i would end up making out with her " , if we were alone in a room & happened to start a conversation , so i see to that it doesn't happen

but i've always wanted to stay away from her . and ive always suppressed my feelings for her .

i thought im over her , BUT , today when i saw a photo that looked like her for an instance made my heart race & i think skipped a beat. i suppressed it soon enough .
that , told me that im not over her yet

" ALL I WANT IS TO KEEP HER OUT OF MY LIFE & STAY AWAY FROM HER "

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some thing tells me that she can't be happy if she becomes a part of my life & i'm not capable of emotionally satisfying her from the bottom of my heart .
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" I JUST WANT HER TO STAY AWAY FROM ME & LIVE A HAPPY LIFE " .
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IS THIS NORMAL ??????????????????????????????????????????????????

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47% Normal
Based on 19 votes (9 yes)
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  • Tealights

    Yeah, it's normal for both genders.

    Over a tremendous amount of time, dating other people, soul-searching and so on, you'll get over her. Why so much time? It's because you never confessed and suppressed your emotions, so you're thoughts are going to be pledge by the "What if" and the daydreams that come with it, that will last for a while until you accept the choice you've made and move on.

    Now, if you confess your feelings to her without expecting to date, getting over her might go faster, because if she shows disinterest in dating, then you can move on knowing it wouldn't have worked out. Now if you confess, and she likes to you too, then you got to grow some balls, learn to communicate your emotions properly (cause no one wants a partner who hides their emotions 24/7), and give your 100% best to the relationship; or you can refuse to date her by telling her everything you wrote here.

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    • strapp

      thanks man ☺

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  • strangethingshappen

    Heart racing =anxiety
    I had this once when I was head over heels for someone but I always got a bit too much anxiety which was another reason why I pushed them away

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  • pumpedup

    Yes, it is normal. You are at odds with your feelings for her. Maybe there is some self-doubt on your part that you are not good enough for her. That is what is making you think that you do not want to have anything to do with her. I like the saying, "If you love someone, set them free. If they don't come back, it was never meant to be." I have felt exactly what you felt for a girl many times. I felt, "I am not in her league", or "I could never satisfy her as much as she needs to be". Some chicks i have gone for are sooooooooooooo beautiful, that they are in another level compared to me. My heart said otherwise. Sometimes your head needs to override your heart. It is completely normal how you are feeling.

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  • thegypsysailor

    "i do this to my family as well i try to keep them away from getting attached to me as much as possible"
    So your family isn't attached to you already? Were you raised by wolves in the woods?
    That's one of the weirdest statements I've yet read on this site. Are you on drugs?

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    • strapp

      no , its one of those things , that cant be explained using words , im sorry if i irritated you .

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