Walking makes me sad
I think I'm depressed so I'm not writing this to find out what's wrong with me I'm after advice, I've been exercising a lot more lately, for weight loss and because it's meant to help depression but for me the act of walking makes me feel deeply sad and upset,
When I'm in The house I'm distracted, I've got music and TV shows, games and internet etc, I don't always suppress my emotions but I also don't want to be thinking about them 24\7 but when I walk, jog and climb it's a different matter,
There's a steep hill formation not far from my house, in a bustling town it's the closest thing to countryside and climbing up and down it and walking along the few mile length is good exercise but as soon as I'm out there just the sound of the birds and the smell of fresh air I can't help but begin to feel down, really down, what makes it worse is that at the top I have to rest, and the view goes on for miles of sprawling towns and parishes, looking down at all those people going about their daily lives just kills me for some reason
I need to carry on climbing, I want to, but at the same time it makes me feel like shit which stops me from going, doesn't anyone have any advice on how to cope with this, I tell myself that I can deal with all these feelings at night or later on but for now I'm going to enjoy this climb and view but it never works out that way, I'm not even really sure what kind of thing I'm after, techniques for delaying it or, I don't know