Voices in my head
I have a voice in my head that I get into arguments with all the time. This voice is always negative, and will contradict pretty much anything I think about.
For example, when I found out that my grandpa died, the first thought in my head was "I wish it was grandma instead," then instantly felt guilty. That is not how I feel!
Another example is that I KNOW that I would do ANYTHING for my son, I'd give my life for him without a second thought - but that voice says "would you REALLY do that"?
I guess this voice... I don't ever literally 'hear' it... it's a thought in my head, but I can't control it. I try to disown any thoughts that this voice tells me by saying "it's not me, that's not how I feel", but the voice tells me otherwise, and I feel powerless.
Is this normal? What could be causing this? I know I need to see a therapist, but I don't have the money for that right now. :-(