Urge to hurt my girlfriend's cat
Hi everyone. I know my story's title is a little bit harsh and I guess you already got the wrong impression of what kind a person I am, so here is some background info: I'm 20 years old, ambivert, social, kind and animal-loving person. I was lucky to be an owner of two dogs since I was a child and I loved them both, NEVER laid my hands on them. Like I said, I love animals and they seem to love me back; be it dogs, cats, parrots or hamsters. So don't you think I am one of those animal abusers, I despise people who abuse animals. But lately a strange feeling is flowing through me: I have an urge to hurt my girlfriend's female cat. Here's the thing. I started dating this girl about 2 months ago and we really hit it off, it got pretty serious and we are happy. When she told me she has a cat I didn't feel this urge, I like cats and I had never hurt one in my entire life, but after a month into our relationship she told me her cat is anti-social, it fights with other cats and avoids foreign humans. Then I felt a spark of the feeling I'm telling you about. When we talk on phone, her cat is always meowing, crying for attention in the background and it's driving me crazy (I'm not jaleous or something). When my girlfriend told me her cat is terrified of the sound of plastic bags (probably a result of past abuse) it made me want to hurt it even more. I dont know why but when I think about this cat I feel like a volcano is about to errupt inside me and a whole new "me" is taking over. This feeling kinda scares me because in my mind I tend to picture myself hurting the cat and I don't know how I'd act when I'll actually see it, I'm afraid this will screw up our relationship, this girl means alot to me.
Is it normal? what should I do?
Thanks for reading and helping. Jake