Upper class white guy / black girls
I am a white man who is incredibly attracted to some black women but this attraction has been unrequited. As a white guy who grew up in wealthy suburbia, I was never exposed to any non-white people - bar visits to the "dirty old city", or a neighbor with an old dark-skinned maid. But once I reached the later stages of puberty, I started being attracted to black girls, fantasizing whenever I could get a glimpse - or better yet, catch the enticing scent - of a pretty black girl. I have never dated or even kissed a black girl or woman and I am now turning 30, being rather secluded in white upper (middle) class surroundings, from white colleges to a PhD program in which the few black girls exclusively dated black guys - even if that meant for them, in the extreme, dating High School Dropouts. I am now an Associate Professor at an elite university - which I do not reveal unless queried - but black women, and only black women, even seem to find that discomforting.
Whenever I have tried to approach a black girl, it has ended in utter rejection. I went on dates, on which I was told that the girl only ever dated black guys and felt uncomfortable with me. I was often rejected even in the mildest approach, whereas white and asian women have approached and seduced me relentlessly for the past decade.
I am athletic with broad shoulders, a little over 6 ft, have a Princeton PhD, and am routinely coveted by attractive white and asian women from 'good' backgrounds. I also have dark red (auburn) hair - don't know if that is attractive to whites/asians but not blacks?? But black women won't even become buddies of mine, let alone consider dating me - including one with whom I was passionately, emotionally infatuated and who ended up casually telling me that she could not imagine having sex with a white man, for personal and historical reasons (?!). She ended up moving in with a black man, who happened to be a 'waste collector' and who left bruises on her face.
It is rather depressing and I wonder whether I would even know how to pleasure a black woman, although I am confident in my ability to sexually satisfy white and asian women (insert penis joke). I may surmise that, in my experience at least, the barrier to white male-black female dating has been the attitude of black women. But some white guys, many of them poorer and less educated, do attract black girls - why not me?
Is it normal that black women, and only black women, ignore me?