Uni is making me sad

I'm a first year in uni. I moved out to college a week ago and settled in well. But there's one thing, one looming saddening aspect that is sagging in my chest and making me feel trapped frustrated isolated and silly for choosing this path. I basically worked extremely hard last year in a minimum wage job to get myself accommodation and then after saving up finally for my dream college covid hit and the campus is dead and depressing my lectures are online it's very hard to meet people outside of my room mates, it's my first year and socialising is literally discouraged.. its making me feel extremely disappointed and feeling overwhelmed that I'm missing out on what could've been such a wonderful year.

I dont know what to do and I think that perhaps that's because these are circumstances that are out of my control and I'm aware that therefore it's in my best interest to learn to accept the hands I've been dealt- I mean that's life right?

I just cant help but feel very unhappy with the situation every bit of fun or happiness is overshadowed by this looming pandemic. I feel so poised and ready to jump into life and seize every opportunity but it feels as though they've all been pulled out of my reach postponed for another year. Maybe longer.. what if my second year of college is also comprised, I'm the kind of person who would absolutely flourish in student life theres so much I want to do but everything is closed down it's making me depressed.

Sorry for the ramble I just feel like I've worked so hard to be in the position I am both mentally and financially and I was so so incredibly ready to really work hard for my life after being irresponsible in my past it made me realise who I am and who I want to be, I want so badly to get stuck in and I'm just so confused.

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  • raisinbran

    Instead of being depressed, channel your feelings into a dark, angry place and join a hate group like everyone else.

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  • momgetthecamera

    raaA that's so unfair :( i mean you're probably more free now as you're uni age, so you can take yourself out to places still.

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    • Sad18yo

      Maybe. At mine we can’t even leave the dorm :(. It’s just been me and the walls for 2 months, except when I go to eat. I literally don’t know the guy I’ve been living next to for 8 weeks’ name.

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      • momgetthecamera

        What?? You can't leave the dorm? After school??

        can you not even leave school grounds??

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        • Sad18yo

          Sadly no :(. I mean, I can leave, but I won’t be allowed back in.

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  • JellyBeanBandit

    Yeah that's definitely normal to feel that way, millions of people like you around the world must be feeling the same way. I feel really sorry for you, I hope you'll be able to enjoy next year at least.

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  • RoseIsabella

    Yes, I think a lot of people are more than a little sad about what the Covid virus has done to their lives with regard to socialization. You are not alone! There are many people who are suffering in the the areas of their finances, jobs, social lives, family lives, academic lives, and so forth. Please just know that you are not alone!

    I hope you don't think I'm being glib in suggesting this, but I think it would be of great benefit to you to keep a journal of your life activities, and emotional struggles throughout the course of this coronavirus pandemic. I know it ain't easy, but you are living through history, and recording your thoughts, and feelings as you live through this is of value to yourself, and even future generations. You are a witness to history, and this too shall pass, dear heart!

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