Turned on by shooting tvs

I'm turned on by shooting TVs. I discovered this after shooting the family TV during an argument with my pregnant wife over some meat we had.

The trouble is that I'm having a hard time getting more TVs and can't really find any porn that relates to it either. Can't get more TVs because nowhere accepts doge coin and the few videos I've found online with TVs being shot are missing a crucial element.

I've discovered shooting the TV itself is only half of it, because guns turn me on anyway. I think the REAL turn on was the sense of striking fear in someone and making them feel helpless.

See the fight with my pregnant wife wasn't even really that bad. It was about meat after all. The trouble is that she wasn't LISTENING to me really and it literally scared me somehow because I wasn't really used to it because I've had her under my thumb since she was 12. I tried raising my voice, and even towering over her to subconsciously remind her that I could easily hurt her if I wanted, but she kept standing up for herself. I honestly felt scared and was panicking, totally unable to accept this loss of control as a reality and I lost control almost like a toddler and was willing to do anything to get her back in line, to just brute force it. Next thing I knew I just shot the TV. It surprised even me but it worked. It terrified my pregnant wife. The fear felt not just satisfying but ended up turning me on.

Now I'm chasing that high again, like an addict. I want to shoot more TVs in front of my pregnant wife until I know she'll never ever try that again. It's a rush watching someone who wants to look at you as a sense of comfort and them being forced to walk on eggshells around you instead. I also like that my boy sees this so he's learning early how to run a household.

Obviously most of that is going to be normal, but is it normal that shooting TVs is actually turning me on too?