Transman,semen dysphoria?
( Warning very graphic)
Any of you other transmen out there have this problem? So last night I had sex with my girlfriend. Just when I was done orgasming I felt this feeling that made me feel sad. I thought and thought hard about how cis men can have sex but release semen in there partner's vagina. I thought about it, and realize I can never do that? I can never have the ability to be a biological father? Never get my girl pregnant. I've had girls in the past tell me it's a deal breaker if I can't make kids? I have that envy of my friend who's cis and is going to be a father. It's not his fault and he's a good friend. I just have this disgust in me when I see pregnant women. Thinking again, I could never be the one who has sperm to fertilize an egg. I would feel complete if this was possible. I have a prosthetic penis that I use to penetrate her. I want one where there's a way to shoot some kind of fluid that mimics semen. It's 2018 stuff like this should exist. :/
It would make me happy, but I would still have this feeling of dysphoria of not being able to produce semen. I'll never have a penis like a biological male. I guess these are the things I have to accept as a transguy. It'll get better I'm sure...it's just a pain sometimes.
Are these normal feelings for a transman? I think so?
You guys Comment if you like. I want to hear also from other transmen in there experience with this type of dysphoria. I'm sure I'm not the only one who has it.