To constantly feel unwelcomed

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I don't know if it's the amount of stress I am in, but unless I'm in my home, I always feel an unwelcoming vibe. Last night I went to two local cafes. The first one my fiance and I went to, no one welcomed us. Even though he tried to say hello to someone. The second one was a bit different; this time one of the workers welcomed my fiance and not me (according to him, the worker nodded at me, but I was already feeling down)

The last time I have felt this unwelcomed was my birthday last year. It's almost like a dark cloud won't leave me. I feel so gloomy; so much so that it's like a curse was inflicted on me.

I would say something like "on the bright side" but even my friends and family are struggling. I feel I'm like a curse, bringing pain and suffering onto others. I try to keep going, but it's hard when my loved ones are suffering while I am trying to make myself laugh.

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  • GaelicPotato
    4 years ago

    You're not welcome in these parts.

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    • beats
      4 years ago

      OK. GaelicPotato: I've read a bunch of your comments on these threads, and I have to say you're an asshole. Do you get off by being a jerk? Its pretty pathetic, and in light of the site's contents, definitely not normal

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  • momgetthecamera
    4 years ago

    I'm really surprised you put into words how I feel myself. I didn't realise there were similar people. Maybe you were hurt before, and you give off signals that you're guarded, and uptight. That may be less approachable. And if you yourself struggle to accept genuine love, you may feel others don't like you. But it's hard to be likeable when you don't display anything relatable, vulnerable, or human- but that's hard to do when you're not used to being accepted.
    Right now, you could try not to care. Go out in ugly clothes, stare at anything interesting, don't care. Practice embarrassing yourself. That's all I can think of.
    I know how it is to feel 'cursed'. All I can say is that it isn't permanent. I hope that you aren't feeling too burdened by it. Please don't blame yourself. You deserve better.

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    • LOLFanProductions
      4 years ago

      There are sometimes where I let myself be free. I get weird looks from others as they try to avoid me. Or I would say something and people would give me stern looks. However, me being so worried about what others thought about me started with my fiances step mother. It didn't matter what I said or did, she would give me a look or judge me for it.

      The only ones who understand me are my friends and family. Others just don't understand how uptight or quirky I am.

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      • momgetthecamera
        4 years ago

        She sounds really mean. Like some controlling bully. Were you confident before you met her?

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        • LOLFanProductions
          4 years ago

          Yes I was; I was a very bubbly person

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          • momgetthecamera
            4 years ago

            I know that you can be free again, if you were before. Joining a club could be a good idea, to make friends and build confidence. Especially dance clubs!
            If it's really bad, CBD oil could help, as it has done for me. Don't let this old bully get to you x

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  • lafindumonde
    4 years ago

    Are you usually such a negative person? That may be half of the problem.

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    • LOLFanProductions
      4 years ago

      I'm mostly a positive person

      However the amount of stress I'm in is hindering my positivity. This started the day after new year's. I kept my head strong for so long that I'm starting to crumble in all aspects.

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  • --
    4 years ago

    Its a hard loop to get out of but you need to just have fun and not think of others. The way you think will only cause more discomfort and anxiety. Honestly others probably are not noticing you and are just on their own life trip.

    Its a dark lonely road you will travel worrying about what others think, it is like a snowball rolling down a hill that gets bigger and bigger.

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  • Unknown_player
    4 years ago

    You're gonna feel unwelcomed if you have that kind of mindset hunni we're not all the stars of the show some people might not have even noticed you're there. And that can be a good thing

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  • RoseIsabella
    4 years ago

    When you say your loved ones are suffering, how are they suffering?

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    • LOLFanProductions
      4 years ago

      I can't really say about my family because it's top secret info. However, one of my friends is going through her own family matter, and another friend just lost a family member.

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      • RoseIsabella
        4 years ago

        This is anonymous so why would it be top secret info? No one here knows who you are.

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        • GaelicPotato
          4 years ago

          Lol.

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