Thoughts of hurting my girlfriends mini dogs
Hello!
This is the situation. 2 little yorkshire terrier mega mini, scared of everything, shaking all the time, they hide ehing my girlfriend from eveything and cry all the time for no reason, they make a small little noise so that my girlfriend picks them up in the arms, they look at me a stranger evil.
That triggers me such a string feeling to hurt them...hate that feeling.
So I tried to be friends with them and see if I could actually like them like mu girlfriends does but it is impossible, I feel it is so stupid to feed and confort this 2 stupid demanding rats.
I cannot control thoughts of killing them, just kicking them hard or throwing them throw a window.This is somethig that makes me feel super uncomfortable and nervous, ovbiuosly I control myself so holding this anger destroys my brain and I cant stop thinking in the dogs and analyzing why the fuck they exist, why people , why my girlfriend enjoys living with this little boring creatures when there is sooo much to do in life.
This gets so extreme that can affect my desire if having sex with my girlfriend( if the dogs are around in the house)... so it even affects my sex life!!!
I do not know what to do. I love this girl, and I have always loved dogs in my family (big ones). Never ever had this shitty feeling to hurt an animal. Its not nice but it can get really uncontrollable.
Is this normal? What would you do?
I am afraid of telling my gorlfriend as she migh think I am crazy.
We are thinking in living toghether and she will bring the rats!!! I am scared I might hurt them one day if I live with them.
I feel I cannot live in peace with this animals in my house and it will not be possible as I have already tried very hard to change my feelings, impossible.
I alao love her so much that I Would feel so bad making her to get rid of her loving rats...
Its really hard, I want her to be happy too.
And by the way, the 2 rats smeel incredibly bd for the 1kilo they weight. The whole house smells to dog, so this makes me feel as If I were not in a human being home, I am never confortable with that smell.