This may be anonymous, but i still embarrassed posting this

So yesterday I was feeling like I could really use an orgasm. As a crossdresser, I wasn't sitting in my jeans and t-shirt. So having tools in the apartment I found a orbital sander, generic cheap make and model. Making sure no sandpaper was attached. So yea I actually set it on my penis and turned it on and off in short bursts. If many of you have not tried it as a personal vibrator, I highly recommend it. So I guess I was wondering how many others out there have tried, or used on regular basis. I'm sure many will say "Gee, just Get a woman to do that for you" or "take care of it yourself" or other comments. I actually have not been in a real relationship for over 20 years. Women that are ok with and accepting of crossdressing guys are very hard to find. I do not want to start a relationship on lies, or in lack of the truth. Thanks for reading