This is the happiest i've felt in months. should i cut myself?

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The past few months have been OK but not that great. Today, I feel amazing! I feel the best I've felt in months. Weirdly enough, I am getting really strong urges to cut myself. Not to kill myself but just to try it like you'd try a new burger at McDonald's.

I know that people usually commit self harm when they're feeling depressed. I've never done anything like that because it never felt right to hurt yourself out of anger or pain. Now that I'm 100% happy and content today, I get the strange feeling I should cut myself right now. I'd be doing it out of happiness and curiosity which makes it a positive thing!

I know this sounds crazy but it also makes sense. If you're going to cut yourself, you should do it when you're feeling the best, not the worst.

I really hope that someone can shed light on whether they've ever experienced anything like this before.

Cut. Pain.
Oh, there's blood. Nice!
Let's try this again. Owww!
Alright, lengthwise this time.
There there, not too deep!

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  • paramore93
    5 years ago

    I used to do that. I always figured it was something to do with the fact I didn't like being happy xD
    If you're having a good day then go out somewhere, do something to take your mind off it. There's also loads of other methods to try instead of cutting.

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  • nikkiclaire
    5 years ago

    I totally get the desire to do this but please don't. Treat your body well.

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  • Ellenna
    5 years ago

    If you're usually unhappy, being happy is hard to trust and my guess is that the urge to cut yourself is a desire to control your happiness. However, it's not healthy.

    If you're not already in therapy I suggest you seek professional help.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      5 years ago

      Oh yeah, this is totally new to me! I'll see how it goes but I suspect I won't be feeling bad for a long time.

      Now that I'm thinking clearly for the first time, I feel like I can actually go through with killing myself. In that case, I'd never have to feel bad again!

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      • Ellenna
        5 years ago

        Killing yourself because you're happy so you won't ever feel bad again is NOT thinking clearly! Enjoy feeling happy while accepting that no-one with full intelligence is happy all the time.

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  • bulbasaur64
    5 years ago

    i've done that because i have bpd, and strong emotions (even positive ones) screw up my impulse control. i really don't recommend cutting, though. got addicted to it at 14 and i'm still having relapses 12 years later.

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  • [Old Memory]
    5 years ago

    You seem not 100% happy. A person who is 100% happy does not do that. You seem to have a trace of mental pain, perhaps depression or a similar condition. Do NOT try self-harm. An urge like that is very abnormal and definitely harmful, hence the name. You probably suffer from something, and your enthusiasm is trying to cover it, but you should always be aware of it and keep it under control. Curiosity is not necessarily a good thing. Curiosity can KILL. Do you want to know what feels like to get cut? Read some medicine books about surgeries. Visit a hospital to see it yourself. Do not try it on yourself. The results will be beyond your control and you don't know what is happening with your body. You can lose your life or damage yourself severely and permanently. You will then regret it for the rest of your life. Control and repress your curiosity if you have to. Do not do it and try to investigate your mental condition with a specialist, where possible. There might be something hidden.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      5 years ago

      Thanks for taking the time to write this. The more I think about it, I could perhaps be hiding something.

      But hey, I'm feeling great right now so this is new to me and I'm going to enjoy it!

      Now, I actually have the motivation to go do stuff, like cut myself! Before, I'd just lay on my bed and think about it but not be able to pull myself through. I mean, you'd have to pick up a knife, there's the blood, and then bandages. Not to mention the antiseptic because you don't want to get an infection! Then you'd have to deal with covering up with long sleeves which is horribly hot and inconvenient. I can't deal with hiding something for weeks which would be so tiring.

      I've chopped lots of vegetables so it's probably my turn. Then I'll know how vegetables feel when they're being chopped!

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      • [Old Memory]
        5 years ago

        Stop it. This is a serious matter and can lead to death. Do not do it.

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  • Pussy_Destroyer_69
    5 years ago

    Im going to cut my dick but im happy so it's a positive thing!

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  • McBean
    5 years ago

    You have Borderline Personality Disorder. Read more on Wikipedia.com.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      5 years ago

      Nope, I have great impulse control.

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  • Shackleford96
    5 years ago

    Yeah, you be trollin'

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