Thinking about horrible situations on purpose
Sometimes I fantasize about people coming into my house and kidnapping me and I think of a solution in my head as to how I would get away. I also think about a person putting a gun to my head and threatening to take my money and I always think about what I would do. I also think about my reaction to someone raping me and what my family would do. These don't occur often but when they do it's not tormenting in a way its kind of relaxing ? Thinking of someone stabbing me an threading me interests me into why someone would do that. Itn?