There is a demon inside me and its name masturbation

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I am 23 year's old Boy.I grow up a religious family my family background is ready good. I spend my 16 year's well.
When I am 17 I don't know much about sex or human relations.
That time I made some new friends and that's is my worst mistake I ever made.
They introduced Me about masturbation that time I don't have any clue what is it!!?😰😰
But I eventually did it to figure it out at first time I feel good,my brains working really fast I can memorize all the homework teacher gave me is more like a have some kind of supernatural power.My stamina grow Much Higher I tell that time I can run really fast compare with my classmate everything was good.
When I was turned 18 I realised there is some problem in my body slowly I cannot see far distance and my stamina go under below I slowly forgetting simple things my health reduced compare with my classmate.
I was getting shorter. And so many problems.It feels like I am ZOMBIE.I AM ALIVE BUT DON'T KNOW WHAT IS I AM DOING.😶😶😶
Then I understand thaT MASTURBATION KILLING ME SLOWLY. Then I try to stop it. But I was unavailable to do it. If I stop to do it. My whole body start worst pain I ever imagine time that I can't even think. My brains stop working and starting some unknown headache that period of time my I eyes turn into yellow.so stop that pain I have to do masturbation that time.😢😢😢😢😢😢
Masturbation takes away my life My Dream Becoming fighter pilot.I lost 3 year of my life ( I drop education)
I feels sometime I should commit suicide.Becouse I have nothing to live for But I don't have any courage to do it.
I want to get strong and live again my life BUT THIS DEMONS doesn't even leave me alone.
#Note: I am not a pervert person.I don't have any sexual Desire that much I don't think nasty thought about girls.

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  • Boojum
    6 years ago

    Only religious nuts believe that physical pleasure is wrong or evil. The guys who run religions sell this idea because they know it's a natural human drive experienced by the vast majority of people. If they can convince people it's the work of the devil, they'll keep coming to church and handing over money to get rid of their guilt.

    Anything in excess is a bad idea, but it sounds to me like you've had a lot of crap poured into your head by wicked, deluded people selling some brand of religious twaddle.

    The only alternative I can see is that you're suffering from delusions and you should seek psychiatric help.

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    • Fahim
      6 years ago

      TX for advice

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  • GenderConfused
    6 years ago

    Dude... wanking isnt harmful healthwise. You can physically hurt yourself doing it if you aren't careful. But as long as you have a healthy diet you can wank all day.
    If you are having problems with memory and other things of that nature then you need to see a doctor because you most likely have a medical condition that could be managed with medicines.
    People have been wanking for ages. If your conditions were result of the masturbating then it would be a known health risk and everyone would know of it.
    Do yourself a favour. Have a good wank and then go see a doctor. Dont mention the masturbating to the doctor and i bet he will diagnose you with some real medically known problem.

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    • Fahim
      6 years ago

      TX for advice 😊

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  • Morrow
    6 years ago

    I used to have a masturbation problem too, but I've managed to quit completely. You have to put yourself on a schedule. The next time you do it, tell yourself "I won't do it tomorrow". The day after tell yourself "I won't do it for the next 2 days". Keep going 3 days, 4 days and eventually the urge will go away. By the time you get up to a week or so, you'll be so used to life without it you could probably quit right there. I used to masturbate every day, and this strategy worked for me so give it a shot. And don't kill yourself, god wants us all to enjoy the gift of life. Good luck man.

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    • Fahim
      6 years ago

      TX for suggestions

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  • Nickvey
    6 years ago

    yes become a fighter pilot so you can kill the ants on the ground called citizens of that country. you are such a good person.

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    • Fahim
      6 years ago

      What is your problem man😤

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      • Nickvey
        6 years ago

        you judging me ?

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