Therapy is not working

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I've been in therapy on and off for years, taken just about every kind of anti depressant/sleep aid/anti anxiety pill there is, currently on zoloft, amytriptalin and valium.
A sort list of my issues:
I hate myself and constantly have obsessive negetive thoughts about myself
I hate everyone and everything
My emotions are so strong sometimes it hurts me physically to keep from acting out. For example right now I'm furious without much cause and I want to scream and beat the sh*t out of something, and not doing so makes me feel like there are little bolts of electricity racing around in my body and shocking me.
I have panic attacks, migraines, paranoia, the list goes on.
I also have insomnia and it seems like all of my issues are a lot worse when I'm laying awake at night.
I don't know what to do, I'm afraid soon I will completely lose all self control.

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  • PoisonFlowers
    14 years ago

    Sorry, I do not have any advice to give.

    I know what you mean about the anger though. When I try to refrain from expressing it (beating the shit out of something) I feel like it's going to make me ill or something. It feels like I have something in my system and it'll poison me if I don't purge myself of it. When I'm not angry and I look back at these moments, even I find it hard to understand why I am overcome by such irrational thoughts.

    Have you told your therapist about these thoughts and the fact that you aren't finding whatever they're doing helpful?

    You might find some more help here: http://www.uncommonforum.com/

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  • Katesmeowh
    12 years ago

    If you have tried everything talk to your doctor about having ECT treatments. It has changed my life drastically. Google ect treatments.

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  • danwc78
    13 years ago

    Welcome to my world minus the anger, it's replaced by fear and always wanting to cry.

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  • PsychoDJ
    14 years ago

    This is coming to you from a father of 5.I will tell you that suicide seems easy, I have had 3 close friends that have done just that.I only try to give you the hope that things will get better.Panic attacts for me are normal.I Have psychos at work telling me that i am bipolar.Trust me ,my friend , do not lose control.Keep a notepad by your bed and start writing this stuff down.You might be the next Steven Spielberg.

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  • codhubiv
    14 years ago

    Maybe your therapist just sucks

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  • normalisoverrated
    14 years ago

    I advice meditation, yoga, kaballah and law of attraction. First off, you need to get rid of negativity within you that surrounds you. And stop using drugs slowly unless you are suicidal.

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