The worst thing i've ever done
When I was 18 I was going through a really tough time emotionally and felt like hurting somebody. There was beehive near our house and I held a jar over the opening. I caught a few bees and closed the lid on the jar.
That night I went out looking for a hooker. I found a young one walking the street and picked her up. I drove to a quiet spot and we went to the back seat. I opened the jar and held it over her breasts and her genitals and I let the bees sting her.
She was crying and pleading for me to stop. I took the jar away and closed it again. Her breasts and genitals were swollen. Her breasts were swollen so badly that her nipples were pointing in different directions.
Her vagina was really tight and dry and she kept screaming and crying during sex. When I was done she asked me to take her to the hospital, but I refused because I didn't want to risk getting arrested. She then asked me to take her to her grandma's apartment, and I dropped her off there without paying her.
Is it normal that I've always felt guilty about this?