The things i should do

It's complicated, but I should watch ghost documentaries, something scary and something I'm used to since my mother ever watched them.

Also I should be a regalist, and I should tell you I know there's no god, and I should be a pessimist, I should stay the same.

I should be a conventionalist, and I should be the way I used to be. I should have my own morals and I shouldn't reconsider, I should die as a constant, unchanged person, amen.

I should drop my psychology and instead pursue a way to create my own reality, and I should be all-Australian, I should order a decaf soy latte and do all the things my 25-year-old self stands for, 100% purely 25, without the repercussions, without the bullshit, without people hating that self of mine, and people should accept it.

I should constantly stay the same, never changing, never growing, never bettering myself, never having any progress, it should be a constant flow, unmanipulated, uninterfered with, and I should fight for this identity, always the same, like the days I was weird and refused to change, it should be a pain in the neck, it should cause people as much hurt as acting weird and people should whinge that I'm acting this way like it's weird, do you know why?

Because it's authentic, it should be that bad that the teacher won't put up with it!!!