The soldiering of second thoughts
For a while now I've felt the right course is to join the army. Don't get me wrong, having the capacity to kill fellow human beings or waging war doesn't appeal to me in the least.
But to serve my nation and live a life of conscience; of significance, is too much for me to pass up. However, none of my friends agree with my decision. They think I'm stupid for going in. They think I'm "smart" and that I'd be wasting my life as a simple grunt (even though that's not at all what the army entails).
Despite all this there is a nagging doubt in my mind. Something seems out of place. But I don't know what. In essence I guess my question is: "Is it normal to doubt your career choice?"