The people who make me smile the most are the ones who don't know me
There's a band of five guys that I really admire. They all have charismatic personalities that can't stop a smile on my face whenever I watch their interviews or performances. I get giggly, my cheeks flush, and my troubles disappear. Just everything about them makes me happy. I don't care if they're just doing that to look good on the camera because it's not like I'll ever meet them anyway.
My problem is that I care about them more than my family & my friends. Neither of them can make me smile as much as those five guys. I feel horrible because none of them realize it. If one of the guys from the band were to die, I'd me more depressed than if one of my best friends moved away.
Honestly, is this normal?