The only person in the world that i hate is myself...

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For a while now, I have found that I hate myself more than anything in the entire world. But really, I dont hate anything other than war, poverty, and the unfortunate situation of so many people in this world. I am constantly told that I am a genuinely nice, funny person. Even when I go out, it seems to me, and everyone else like I'm having an amazing time, but afterwords when I am alone I go over the night and every single mistake I made, or stupid thing that I did and hate myself for it. If I am supposed to be a person like this, why is it that I hold SUCH a deep hate for myself, and everything that I do?

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    wow I am the same way. I say I've been bullied in the past and it's been by myself. Kids will tease me a lot but usually when I'm happy it doesn't affect me.

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  • rinn
    13 years ago

    I am the same way. People tell me that I'm nice and smart and well-liked but I know that they are wrong. As for being normal, I'm not sure, but I know how you're feeling.

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  • dedcatz
    14 years ago

    You need to find out what your core belief about yourself is. You probably, wrongly, believe you are faulty in some way. It's extremely common.

    We all have a picture, generally a subconscious one, of the kind of person we are, and this is formed very early on by our experiences of the environment around us.

    Find out what your core belief is by questioning your put-downs. Use Cognitive Behavioral Therapy to change your thought patterns, and that will change this belief, tho' it's very slow. But it's the only real way.

    Plus, just remember, you are the person you summarised to us, the rest is a carry over lots of us have.

    I've beaten it, tho' it can still haunt me. Try it, it's a better use of your time than "catastrophising"?

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  • zeebz
    14 years ago

    I think there's a part of us that doesn't even realize that we're involved in a situation. You deserve to focus on yourself and your accomplishments once in awhile. Note that you will always be your own, harsh critic but that the things others like about you is a reflection of how you should feel about yourself.

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  • [Old Memory]
    14 years ago

    ry to stop dumping on yourself - whoever you learned that from - its not doing anything for you useful.

    Try to be a bit more objective and friendly to yourself.

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  • eatingstars
    14 years ago

    Personally I suffer from the same problem. I keep thinking about all the stupid things I did and I think everybody's gonna remember my mistakes.
    I don't think you actually hate yourself, just like I don't actually hate myself. Just try not to think about your mistakes, and focus on your good points instead. :D

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  • PrisonMike87
    14 years ago

    Did you have someone who would always pick on you while you were growing up? I can relate to what you are saying, because my older brother would always make fun of everything I did... and now I realize this has created a similar complex.

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