The countdown

When I'm getting ready for something (usually for work or going out), I countdown the minutes out loud. I'm like, "okay you have 20 mins to get ready be out the door."

I know that sounds pretty normal. But here's where it gets weird. I actually count what percentage I'm at for being ready for work. I've been doing this for YEARS.

By this I mean, I'll have my clothes on, but haven't brushed my teeth, washed my face, made my lunch, etc. So I'll be like, "am I at 50%%?" Then I'll answer out loud, no! And figure out what percentage the "judges" (like those on such shows as American Idol) would give me. There are normally three "judges" (they are obviosuly made up in my mind) and they often rate what percentage I'm at and take a vote. Sometimes they argue.

So now you all probably think I am totally insane. I just wanna know if anyone else thinks this way. I should mention that I do have depression and anxiety, along with OCD. I am no longer on my medication, since I lost my job (but now have a new one) and lost my health benefits (they will kick in at the end of this month). So I had to wean myself of the meds. Not easy. I think this may be why I've been acting "weirder" lately. I'm OCD is getting out of hand!

I often wish these voices would go away, but they are with me every day (especially these past few years). They also countdown the percentage of me getting ready for bed at night. They won't leave me alone!

So am I normal at all, or should I be locked away somewhere? lol