The beast that haunts me

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I'm scared. Terrified of these voices. Pulling me deeper into this abyss. The walls echo fear, words of death. Confidence dissipates into the ether. I think I've hit the bottom now. Paranoia reigns as the dominant overseer. Worry of the inevitable flood has a stranglehold on my every breath. How can I overcome this, suppress these intrusive thoughts. How do I become me... stop taking peoples shit. Just do me, and to hell with the consequences. Not like I feel good now, or I can just give in and fulfill my families opinion of me as the worthless piece of shit they all ways thought I was. Give rise to the anger see what happens. One in the chamber, one in the chest.

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  • qualityaristocrat
    8 years ago

    There is no "true self." Be the sculptor and the marble. The chisel is painful, yes, but the crush of rock is more so. See the sculpture, and make the first strike. Understand how the hammer and chisel interact. Ultimately, a sphinx without a nose is more appealing than a block of limestone.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      Alexis Carrel, well put. An elegant description of the duality between man and nature. Thanks :)

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      This best answer I have ever heard from you. The duality of man and nature is elegantly described in that statement. Alexis Carrel

      Will have to remember that for when I resume my studies, thank you.

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  • green_boogers
    8 years ago

    You have a fatalistic writing style. Sounds kinda cool.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      Thank you, as a kid it concerned my parents heavily. My sister however enjoyed my stories as the morbid nature had twisted her fancy.

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      • green_boogers
        8 years ago

        You should get together with your sister. The two of you could watch a good horror movie.

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  • Short4Words
    8 years ago

    You can let it all go and remember that these are only thoughts. And remember that YOU give weight to them.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      Projection is the next stage of mental deterioration for my particular infliction, that's when you make the voices real. So I agree with you, but on the level before that they just slip through the cracks. I've been able to control them better lately though it is hard need to keep busy. I have a bunch of books I want to write, and a business model I've been babying for a couple years. I just have so much I don't know where to start. I heard a quote on a movie about a painting that said what if that man never applied that stroke, and of course the answer being the canvas would have remained blank. I reach the point though in my studies I feel boxed in, frustrated because there is so much data at my finger tips and I can't type and develop these concepts at the rate they're outputted. Need guidance, motivation, and overall perseverance. I just don't know how to obtain said traits :/

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      Projection is the next stage of mental deterioration for my particular infliction, that's when you make the voices real. So I agree with you, but on the level before that they just slip through the cracks. I've been able to control them better lately though it is hard need to keep busy. I have a bunch of books I want to write, and a business model I've been babying for a couple years. I just have so much I don't know where to start. I heard a quote on a movie about a painting that said what if that man never applied that stroke, and of course the answer being the canvas would have remained blank. I reach the point though in my studies I feel boxed in, frustrated because there is so much data at my finger tips and I can't type and develop these concepts at the rate they're outputted. Need guidance, motivation, and overall perseverance. I just don't know how to obtain said trait :/

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  • Arm0se
    8 years ago

    What is this I don't even...

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  • Legion
    8 years ago

    The voices in my head know not to mess with me. You can't let them call the shots, they must always answer to you. You can be respectful, but they must know who's in charge

    Oh, who put you in charge? *mental smack* ow!

    Question my authority again, and it will be a lot more than a smack! You know what happened last time!

    *grumbling* yes sir.

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  • Anonymous Post Author
    8 years ago

    @short4words Projection is the next stage of mental deterioration for my particular infliction, that's when you make the voices real. So I agree with you, but on the level before that they just slip through the cracks. I've been able to control them better lately though it is hard need to keep busy. I have a bunch of books I want to write, and a business model I've been babying for a couple years. I just have so much I don't know where to start. I heard a quote on a movie about a painting that said what if that man never applied that stroke, and of course the answer being the canvas would have remained blank. I reach the point though in my studies I feel boxed in, frustrated because there is so much data at my finger tips and I can't type and develop these concepts at the rate they're outputted. Need guidance, motivation, and overall perseverance. I just don't know how to obtain said trait :/

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  • Itsnotnormal1
    8 years ago

    Just take a shot gun to the head. Highest success rate by far.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      Mhmm my initial thoughts as well however I meant it metaphorically.

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  • CrimsonEye
    8 years ago

    Stop creeping me out and go write a damn book. That's what all sane people do with weird thoughts! Jeez !

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  • wistfulmaiden
    8 years ago

    Try writing for Creepypasta instead

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  • postmanlover
    8 years ago

    Did you copy this off someone else, or were you just trying to sound cool.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      I was trying to sound like myself.

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  • thegypsysailor
    8 years ago

    This sounds like a quote from a B horror movie.

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  • hurtmeno
    8 years ago

    Self determinism is never the answer for me. I need someone to understand and hug me. THIS is the scary truth for me. The one idea that every person abandons (because of futility) at some point - it's why we love romantic comedies; we know it's just ideal and illusive and ( 99.9 percent) impossible -__- #love

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  • Ace9
    8 years ago

    U sound kinda cool talking like that... and weird. And cool.

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    • itsnotnormal3
      8 years ago

      You are a stupid asshole.

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