That i feel worthless

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ever since i came to this great country(usa) from mexico (iam legal) i had felt alone, back then i could not spoke a single word in English, i got into high school with this issue, i took esl ,ELD classes to get my English going, l always been a shy and sensitive guy and it was hell completely hell people started to push me around and i could not do a thing since i did not knew English , sadly i did not graduated, then a year later i enroll in a community college to finish up my high school, iam almost done just need to pass some tests but they cost 30 bucks which i dont have since i just cant find a dam job and my family is so poor, so i enroll on a free computer tech classes on that college to get to know computers, i finish the course and got a computer tech diploma so what iam struggling here with is the fact that i just feel worthless and stupid, cant find a job and i still live with my family iam 19 years old.

sorry if i made some grammar errors iam also still taking English classes.

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  • americanhoney
    11 years ago

    Listen, I don't normally get all sensitive and shit, but this story broke my heart for some reason.
    Maybe I'm about to get my period.
    Anyway, keep your head up, kiddo. Sometimes people need a little help and it sounds like you are one of them. I will send you the money for your class. Or classes, whatever.
    Post your email address and I will get in touch; I'm not joking. :*

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    • LiveFaster
      11 years ago

      i decided to post this just to find some form of support since i dont speak at all to people( Iam working on it to get rid of my shyness)i appreciate you kind words and if your still willing to help me with my studies i would really love you, at this point i feel as if there is a big rock in path which i just cant move it by myself thank you. My Email: [email protected]

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      • Jayy
        10 years ago

        And? Did she really pay it for you? How is your life going now??

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  • DADNSCAL
    8 years ago

    You're not worthless no matter what your circumstances. This being a plutocratic society, it's easy to get caught up in the materialistic craziness. Keep trying and appreciate all that you've accomplished. Also don't be afraid to take on a menial job to be able to support yourself and feel independent while you get something in your field. It will boost your sel-esteem greatly. Good luck.

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  • Terence_the_viking
    11 years ago

    You are a waster you always will be

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    • LiveFaster
      11 years ago

      Thank you for kicking me into lunacy a bit more

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      • Terence_the_viking
        11 years ago

        You're welcome :)

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  • americanhoney
    11 years ago

    Got it, I will email you this weekend. ;)

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  • heavyscissors
    11 years ago

    I don't know if what I have to say will give any comfort, but I do believe it is true. The fact is, you moved to a country that is profoundly stupid in a lot of ways. We have prosperity and nice mountains and all, and some creative people, but at heart the culture of America today is profoundly sick and stupid. Maybe the reason your experiences in high school and community college make you feel worthless is that these places nurture and perpetuate a stupid and worthless view of life. I mean, why should we care so goddamn much about career, work, achievement? Why can't we live more simply, with less anxiety, self-importance, self-loathing, and more joie de vivre (sorry, that's French)? Point is, you are a real person with intrinsic value, and the society you live in just one huge commercial for its own depraved agenda. It's not you that's worthless, it's the world you live in.
    Okay, maybe that's hard to swallow if you find yourself forced to kiss people's asses in this society just to get on your feet and find a way to survive, but there are other ways to live, and other circles to move in. Bottom line: I think your circumstances are the cause of your depression, and you should stop beating up on yourself and fight to live the kind of life you can enjoy.

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    • LiveFaster
      11 years ago

      Thank you sir, we moved to usa expecting that we found the American dream and true FREEDOM of speech, i love this country, were i use to live was a little community were we could trust each other backs and in some way i was expecting the same from this wonderful country but i was mistaken, not to generalized everyone in this country but most of the kids that i meet in high school were backstabbers and were always putting me down and i cant tell u how many times i went to the men bathroom to cry a bit it was a horrible experience, i felt soo helpless i just want to hurt them but i could not its just not in my nature to do so, no matter how much someone kicks me i just cant hurt them back iam weak and sensible and that part of me is the one that i hate the most, but do no mistaken, i had meet wonderful people but i could not befriend them because iam afraid that they might hurt me. Thankyou soo much :)

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  • Proud_of_my_ancestry
    11 years ago

    I am the same age as you.. We all have our bad times in life. Even after some words of encouragement at the end the situation still exists.

    I would want to tell you that you're not the only one going through tough times. You're not the only one who does not have a sense of belonging. And you're not the only one who feels like a "loser" at times.

    However, think of it this way at least you're trying to get your life straight. You're trying to graduate in order to get your life around. Other true "losers" would have not tried.

    Good luck, you'll get through it!

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  • capcrunch6
    11 years ago

    Check the "classified" section of your newspaper. And vote Romney.

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