Terrible thoughts running through my head constantly

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I'm not sure exactly how to explain this.

Every time I am talking to someone (even the most innocent interactions, small talk, etc.), I find myself thinking about how to physically disable the person I am talking to. Things like "the way he is standing, I could totally blow out his knee with a sharp downward kick", like that.

I've always had thoughts like this, for as long as I can remember. It's like every single person I see around me, I am constantly sizing them up, thinking about what I'd need to do to put them down. I have studied Kung Fu for about 15 years, so it's not just idle thoughts, I KNOW I am capable of this stuff. I'm not an overly aggressive type person, and I have no idea why I think about this stuff.

In the last couple years, it's gone beyond just thinking about physically disabling them, to things like "I could totally stab this pen through her trachea before she could even react" type stuff. I do this CONSTANTLY. With everyone. It only takes a second or two after coming to within arms reach of someone, and I've already fully planned out exactly how I would take them down.

It doesn't interfere with my personal interactions, and I've never really talked to anyone about it, I just wonder what this says about me.

For most of my life I've just dismissed this stuff, but I find myself wondering if there are other people that do this as well (I KNOW it's not normal, not even going there lol).

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  • Grymlocke
    14 years ago

    Are these thoughts voluntary or involuntary. If involuntary it's probably just Pure-O OCD. Purely Obsessional OCD. I'm no doc, but I've had my fair share of crazy intrusive thoughts of doing horrible things, but in the end thoughts are just thoughts.

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  • qwespol
    14 years ago

    hey, ever thought about getting a job as a professional assasin? i'll bet the pay is tripled by your current one, it's like killing 2 birds with a swift, twisting, uppercut blow

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  • izzy_g
    11 years ago

    I think it's normal in the sense that, it sounds like the Kung Fu/self denfense thing is a really big part of your life. You probably find it entertaining to think about using your skills. That's not weird.

    Here's an analogy: if you were a photographer, even if you were out doing something other than taking pictures, I bet you'd be noticing/thinking about things that would make a good photograph. That's not creepy, right?

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  • Avant-Garde
    11 years ago

    Try Regression Therapy (I believe that's what it's called.).

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  • lovecats
    13 years ago

    I hate intrusive thoughts. It's a form of OCD

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    i find this completely normal. i often image during conversations that something sexual happens or deadly no matter the perosn.

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    Eerie dude...

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  • wilkincl8
    14 years ago

    Haha! I always thought that I was the only person that did this (especially the kick to the knee thing)

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  • screaminasian
    14 years ago

    whenever i meet someone i instantly figure out how to disable them and escape

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  • BlackSaviour
    14 years ago

    are you dan stuart?....

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  • Manarutos
    14 years ago

    I wouldn't say it's normal, but I don't think its too uncommon either, as long as you don't act on the thoughts, then all is good.

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  • thundercat
    14 years ago

    Maybe you suffered either an attack or was under the menace of one when a child, youngster or young man?
    Have lived in dangerous places?
    Have you ever been particularly afraid of or sensitive to physical pain and hurt?
    Maybe you didn't entered in Wu-Shu out of a life philosophy or in seek of equilibrium but out of the need of having powerful self-defense means for your own peace of mind?
    If some of the upper things are true, maybe you have been under a subdued and probably repressed aggression-by-fear neurosis, which have become to be a kind of obsession.

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  • YumInsanity
    12 years ago

    thats defintely not normal at all, what the fuck, you need to turn yourself in to the local police before they trace your IP address

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