Tell my secret, but ive hidden it for 2 years!

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Ok, I know it's wrong but I can't help it and it's taking over my life. After EVERY SINGLE meal or bit of food that enters my system, i throw back up agen!
It all started when i saw my brothers girlfriend doing it, and i asked why and she sed it makes her skinnier, at the time i was 11 nearli 12 and i tried it and yeah it made me feel beta.
its ruining my life though because me and my family have been going out for meals because my mums got cancer and we all need to support her, so we been making the best of whats left of her life, and i need to keep going to toilet on the sly after i eat, then i throw it all back up. ive got the most wonderful boyfriend in the world who caught me doing it and sed if i dont stop then he's gonna tell someone, but he dont know how hard it is. i feel like im alone.
i wanna stop for my mum, but its so hard.
please can someone help me :( x

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  • Jim_Pfoss
    15 years ago

    No one on this web site can help you. You need serious, urgent medical attention now or you will die young.

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  • AnnaAgain
    15 years ago

    You need to tell someone... your boyfriend only wants to tell someone because what you have is a disorder- a disease. It requires medical attention and professional help. You may not feel comfortable telling your family, but please tell someone like a school counselor or a mature adult friend.

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  • BestFriends
    15 years ago

    awww thank you for all your replies.
    i told my boyfriends mum coz shes a nurse and she put me through to a phscolygist and i am getting medical treatment now.
    i am fed on the drip sometimes and when they first saw me i was immidatley rushed to hospital with all sorts in me lol.
    i weighed 4 stone 3 and i didn't know how ill i was.
    the doctors told me that it is a desease that will stay with me for the rest of my life, but to all you people out there helping me, you have changed my life around, and im very, very grateful.
    Now all my mind is focused on my Mum and hoping, that if she's as strong as her little girl, she will pull through too.
    Thank You x

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    • Autofire223
      14 years ago

      Good job it's good you got proffesional help you'll get better!!

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    • Onethimesignin
      14 years ago

      Good im glad to see you got help, sorry bout my post

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  • Angelmom
    15 years ago

    You need to talk to your Mom and get into a treatment facility for bulimics. Only professional help will help you now.

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  • bomaoneuk
    15 years ago

    Try indian food.

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    • pixie_dust
      12 years ago

      wtf will eating indian food do?

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  • qwerty1282
    11 years ago

    Your bulimic I hope you know that, you need to get help.

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    1. You have bolemia 2. If you think youre fat eat healthy and go to a gym 3. Dont puke anymore 4. Doing that makes you look worse because you look sick dont feel good your stomache is in past youre ribcage and makes you look unnatractive 5. Halloweens in a week go buy a bunch of candy and eat it :) 6. Get some meat on ur bones and eat right and go to the gym

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  • lovelovelove
    13 years ago

    Go to rehab facilty for eating disorder i swear it will help

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  • lilrebel80
    13 years ago

    It's Bulimia. And it will kill u if you don't stop, your organs will shut down and the acid from your vomit will burn your knuckles destroy your teeth and eat away at your liver. It's almost impossible to stop on your own, and I know being by best friend went through it. If you can't tell your family start by making an appointment with a therapist, then a doctor to assess how much damage you have done to yourself. Then at some point you need to tell your family because you will need the support. If you continue then you will die, and your family will have to cope with your death as well as your mothers cancer. Get help, and always remember that no matter Joe much you weigh You Are Beautiful :)

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  • Ineedhelpplease
    13 years ago

    lol

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    STOP IT!!! dont do this to yourself you should tell someone. The real way to get skinnier is eating less and doin excersize. there are lots of girls who die this way. Do u think ur mom would like wat ur doin? Also tell ur bros gf to get sum help 2.

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    Bulimia

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    go to a shrink!! jesuusss

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  • Autofire223
    14 years ago

    If you keep doing that your probably going to become anirecsic and die of bieng to skinny and throwing up on purpose think about that for a second......

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  • Onethimesignin
    14 years ago

    People, be nice this girl (or gay guy because it says he/she has a bf ) has a serious issue. Sweetie (im gonna assume your a girl) you need professional help, it doesnt mean your crazy i see a phsycatrist. And its the only way to get this problem to go away. Have your boyfriend help you. it will be much better than Being sick. Do you wnat your last memories of oyur mom to be 'oh i was always so ashamed when we went out because she was dying and i was worried about my body image'? No i dont think you do so get some help, Where do you live? Because i could look up pshchatrists locally if your not gonna do it.

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  • wannarocktheworld
    14 years ago

    ur a an anorexic maniac

    stop it before u become a black hole and dissappear.

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    • sanejane
      14 years ago

      good for you, congratulations! getting help is hard but life is so much better on the other side of an ED!!

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  • joliegems
    14 years ago

    How does your BF like you bad vomit breathe? Also, have your back teeth started to rot out yet? All of this is not attractive. Its not a cute little habit, you need to go a Dr. talk about this. You will ruin your body and health if you don't stop before it is too late.

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  • SpillZone
    14 years ago

    Hell no!! your Belimic, get to your doctor before you DIE!

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  • HiGirl1309
    14 years ago

    hi.. i kind of have the same porblum but i cut my self insted. I'v tryed to stop too but it's just plan hard!

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  • Vivacious
    15 years ago

    sorry for posting, just read that you got help, good for you!!!!! xx

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  • Vivacious
    15 years ago

    girl, seek professional help, for real. bulemia is a serious thing. i battled it and had to come to my senses and tell someone. i'm better now and i believe it's worth everything to feel healthy and be healthy, and bulemia can't be part of that. hope you get some help babe, hang in there

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  • Bazaza
    15 years ago

    here is a mans point of view yeah we do tend to like slim girls but not TOO slim I would choose a chubby girl over a walking skeleton anyday they look like they are diseased you have your boyfriend and if that does not work out you may find another but if you keep up the bulimia people will think you have aids and once that happens whats the point of looking attractive or skinny no one will want to touch you anyways

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  • lurvejazz
    15 years ago

    it is unhealthy. you should stop it.

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  • biblebashingtreehugger
    15 years ago

    it is important to know why you are doing it, if its because you think it makes you more beutifull because it means your skinny you just need to think more possitively about yourself. you shouldnt stop because he wants you to, you should want to because its unhealthy and being too skinny (like size 0) can actually kill you, or cause something simply like a common cold to become a serious infection. if you frind it difficult to break the habit i reccomend you seek a psychiatrists aid.

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    • swq70
      15 years ago

      See a fucking psychiatrist...

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      • bioboy
        15 years ago

        This is not an uncommon response to traumatic life events. In your case, I doubt it has so much to do with weight loss as it does with having a feeling of control. You have fixated on the fact that you can control your food intake when so many other things, such as your mother's condition and the responses of your family and friends to it.

        I do certainly recommend seeking psychological help. You will notice that I did not say psychiatric help; that is because I believe it is much more important to see a psychologist who can not perscribe drugs first as they are force then to deal with the actual issues that are causing your self-destructive behavior than a psychiatrist who will begin by throwing medications at you until one begins to help and only then start in earnist to work on the underling condition.

        Keep in the back of your head additionally though that bulliemia is a very inneffective way of losing weight. The fat cells go into starvation mode and become more permiable to caloric intake. They will desprately cling to the minimal food intake and store everything that they can that is not immediately needed for survival as fat.

        Additionally, consider that long term vomiting will cause your teeth to rot and the malnutrition will cause them to fall out. Which do you think is more attractive to men: a girl who is pretty and somewhat plump, or an emaciated girl with no teeth?

        Find help, tell others that you need help, and remember that it is not your fault. Anyone going through what your are needs help in dealing. Those who do not admit that they are having trouble under such circumstances are merely fooling themselves.

        Good luck!

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  • footinmouth
    13 years ago

    You need to stop it NOW because you spell like a retard

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