Talking issues

You have selective mutism. This is usually triggered by severe social anxiety. If you had tramatic experences or lots of social rejection it could have caused you to not want to talk. I don't personally understand how this works so I probablly can't give any good advise. Im wondering though have you ever tried to talk to them and nothing will come out, or do you just feel afarid to talk or something else? Maybe just imagine other people how you would imagine talking to your stuff.

It's not silly at all.

Did something traumatic happen to you to cause this?

It could be selective mutism. I have this. When, I'm in public I sometimes literally can't talk. For instance, last summer I took some art classes at community college and I was so scared of everyone, that It took me 3-4 days to be able to talk. The classes only lasted a week. I wasn't able to really bond with anyone, except this girl. Even at that, I was still kinda unable to talk. I always feel like I'm dying when I'm around people, even if it's just three other people. No matter how much I want to talk sometimes, I CAN'T get anything out. I have the urge, but nothing is able to push it forwards.

I'm not a orphan. I have had a traumatic life and only one of my friends died....
My family doesn't seem to know that I act like this in public...

Thank you for your story. I thought I was the only one with this problem...

I do the same thing, i'm not orphaned but I've lost 14 friends and very few people know

When I was a teenager, I had a speech impairment that made it difficult for me to talk to others. My parents sent me to speech therapists, but this only made my frustrations worse. So, I can relate somewhat to what you are going through (even though my problem was different and not as severe as yours).

From what you have written, it is clear that you are intelligent, and your written communication skills are already superior to most others who are your age. Use this to your advantage, for now.

I don't know what your specific problem is, but you need to get it diagnosed by a *skilled* and *experienced* professional (psychologist, speech therapist, etc.). The problem is most such professionals, despite their credentials, don't really know what they are doing. So, *you* need to search for and evaluate such professionals and *choose* one you can work with, who you believe really understands the cause of your problem.

I would suggest searching the Internet for medical articles that describe your problem, with possible causes and cures. If these are too technical for you, get some adults to help you with this. Then, send e-mails to the authors of the articles, describing your problem, and asking for suggestions and recommendations on *who* might be able to help you. The sooner you get this problem solved, the better chance you will have in life. Verbal communication is critical to success in life.

I ended up going to an old, highly experienced, and well-respected speech pathologist, who was actually able to explain to me the cause of my problem. Within months, my problem was mostly cured.

Tea that is weird.. I mean you seem to have a nice personality and you are far from being dumb. But I wonder why its hard for you to talk? I'm not a psychiatrist but all I have to say is that you sound like a smart, friendly person. There is nothing to be afraid of in talking or letting other people hear your voice. I really think you should try to do it more as you are getting older and it will be much easier when you become an adult. I wish you the best