Suicide tourism or assisted suicide

Killing yourself just because some idiots laugh at you is ridiculous. College doesn't last forever. Not to mention you can drop out whenever you want and easily get a job to fend for yourself. Or simply stop caring.

Nowadays I'm watching atleast 2-3 motivational videos per day to overcome depression.

Thinking of suicide, because idiots laugh at your cracked lips?! I don't know if I should be encouraging, or blunt and rude here... Fuck the people that laugh at you. Just go on with your life.

i need a suicide person being a old asshole i need help to end it all,, i have lived 75 years it is time to go...

I don't think your situation qualifies for assisted suicide. It usually is required to be something terminal or such.

From what I've read of your condition, there are several types. Is yours triggered by an allergen? Perhaps the salves you are using contain the allergen.

I get that it sucks. When I was a teen, I had to take roaccutane for my shitty skin. One of the many side effects was my skin became extremely brittle. My lips were constantly cracked and bleeding, similar to your condition, possibly? It sucked and was painful, I have depression and anxiety to boot (and neither were managed back then) but suicide over that was certainly not an option (and that was while I was on a drug that has famously caused enough imbalance in people to cause them to commit suicide. Not to mention, left me with long term damage far worse than the skin thing).

Keep trying to manage the physical symptoms. It may take a while til you find something that works. Also, I'd see a psychologist for management of the anxiety it is causing you.

So you want to kill yourself for that stupid reason being your swollen lips?

The suicide business sounds highly profitable.

I think your reaction towards this is highly abnormal and should stop immediately. You just have a medical condition, like virtually everyone in this world, but yours is more visible than most of them. Can't see how this changes anything about you. It's like the condition you have is 1% of the problem and the remaining 99% are added by your own frustration about this.
Suggestion: Stop doing what you're doing, stop thinking the way you're thinking and you solved 99% of the problem. Then, with adequate treatment you might be able to sort the remaining 1%.
Again, your way of perceiving this is very wrong. The right perspective should be: How can I overcome this? How can this help me become stronger? How can I live a normal life with this? And I want to add that this kind of thinking is valid to everyone around you, because everyone suffers from various reasons. We just need to find ways to overcome these difficulties and you are not different, you are in the exact same category of normal people who must fight with the exact same problems, as they come in various shapes and sizes. You don't have terminal diseases, you don't have a ruined life, everything is just fine with you. Remember, "birds born in a cage think flying is an illness".

Meditating bro. Gotta meditate