Suicidal for no reason?

51% Normal
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Since I was a child, I have always thought about killing myself. Some thoughts came from sadness, which is a normal thought if you are really sad (and we all get over that eventually) but the concerning part is, even when I am really happy, I still think about killing myself.

For some reason, I have never liked the idea of living. I've always welcomed death, and enjoyed the thought of it, no matter what my mood was.

Maybe I wasn't meant to live and this is some subconscious point of me telling myself that I am supposed to die.

Or maybe I'm just not normal?

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51% Normal
Based on 362 votes (186 yes)
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  • Lolafredrick
    13 years ago

    I think about killing myself all the time the reasons
    .I have no friends
    .I hate my school
    .my familuy fights

    FML

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  • xcielciel
    8 years ago

    I'm not sure if it's exactly normal, but what you feel is similar to what I feel on a daily basis. I haven't talked to a professional yet but I would assume there's something wrong.

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  • purple1498
    10 years ago

    I feel the same way.
    I'm healthy most of the time yet I still feel suicidal. *Sigh*

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  • imadragon
    10 years ago

    Same exact thing here. I think suicide will always be an option for me.

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  • solo1
    12 years ago

    I think you are going through a period of soul searching. Questioning your own existence is normal. Sometimes the awareness of your own mortality can make you feel lonely and a bit lost cause after all nobody can really truly share that feeling.
    God knows you though, every thought, every feeling, every fear. You may not believe that but then I think that's why you feel the way you do. When you haven't found the meaning of life, feeling nothing can seem like an attractive option. Hope you find it :)

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    I am the same way. I was actually terrified of death at one point, but i've gotten over the fear, and i actually think the best way i could die is if i do it myself. I don't think i would be getting help anytime soon, but i can control myself enough to not do it.

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    • so_damn_unpretty
      12 years ago

      Well I don't want to do it... its just that it plays in my mind like a movie... but i do hope to die in a really pretty or really crazy way, it would suck to die by something bogus like a cow being airlifted shitting on my head (true story but the guy just got paralyzed)or something

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  • so_damn_unpretty
    13 years ago

    I have this too... sometime im really sad and sometimes its just a thought, a daydream, while im in a perfectly good mood... I also have "suicidal fantasies" like the most beautiful way to do it and stuff.but yah. its not normal. i plan on getting some help and i think you oughta do likewise.

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    • [Old Memory]
      13 years ago

      I am the same way. I have sucidal thoughts almost everyday, even when i am happy. And i think of every possible way i could do it.

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  • dragonlover
    14 years ago

    Woh, reaperAJ that is exactly me! Anyways, no one knows why, but it happens to alot of people, friends help the most for me

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  • crazyman143
    14 years ago

    I think you are in a very dangerous situation and you need to tell somebody and get help immediately

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  • PrisonMike87
    14 years ago

    I would recommend seeing a doctor. This is abnormal. Why would you want to throw away the only thing that makes you, you?

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  • PoisonFlowers
    14 years ago

    You enjoy the thought of becoming nothing? Hmm, I don't like the idea of death. I do think about dying a lot. A LOT. I still don't like the idea of it. Life doesn't appeal to me all that much either, but it's all I will have, so I know I should make something of it.
    Well, we're all going to die. No need to rush it. Your turn will come soon :)

    I don't know if many people feel the same way as you though, sorry.

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  • tararozzi
    14 years ago

    You sound slightly stupid. Get some help!

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      13 years ago | pl

      I am not slightly stupid. Suffering from suicidal thoughts is not a sign of idiocy, nor does it mean that I lack any intelligence.

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    • bronte_91
      13 years ago

      Um, pretty sure that would be YOU who sounds stupid.

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