Stench of death ii

So anyway..yes obviously I'm in so much pain. I wonder if I could ever learn how to laugh naturally once again.. My problem is related with my health. I know how and when it all started. Seven years ago, I had a terrible bad breath pop out of nowhere. I was just a little kid at that time.. I was so conscious of most things about my appearance.. I wanted to be really clean.. I still remember it all..how I suddenly faced the mirror one day, seven years ago, scrutinized my tongue then scratched out those white substances with my bare fingers..yeah..silly, silly me. It was the cause of the bad breath. I did it for about once or twice..or thrice perhaps.. That was how the infections started. Then later on, I noticed how my friends would jerk away from me whenever I spoke..and how the people around me suddenly made funny expressions whenever I opened my mouth. I felt like there was something wrong with me.. Then I knew: I was literally a walking stench. So, as a child, I was traumatized. I was an honor student back then..quite intelligent, admired by everyone.. there were a lot of expectations on me.. then suddenly it happened. I stopped speaking to people. I became a mute. Everyone was wondering about why I suddenly became such a silent girl.. Then, from a respected honor student, I turned into a laughing stock. They made fun of me. I stopped going to school for a while.... Then, I don't know how I recovered but I did. Eventually. My mother and I went to many doctors but nobody helped us at all. The dentists were just smiling at me, saying, "It's all in your head." they told me not to worry about trivial things. Bad breath happens to everyone. Nobody. Nobody at all understood me. My case was different. I had bad breath for every second of my dying life. I had the dragon's breath all the time. I cried all the time, even at the school's comfort room. I cried to myself because no one would help me.. So I learned to lean on nobody but myself. I asked God why I became something so terrible and pathetic. I never knew the answer..