Starting to have depression. need help before it get worse.
As of I just turned 19 the world is just falling apart. Every day it keep getting worse. I have pay $350 to my mom rent,sure not a lot but I have no job. Got laid off few week ago. I been looking for a job but everyday I get more lazy. Somedays I just lay in bed all day, that just some of the days. But I can't keep this up. Worst part is no one is hiring.
I just get so confuse. My dad tell me to go to college. My mom say your not ready for school and she forcing me get a job. my brother is the perfect one. Go to McGill get 90 percent in all his class. My dad and mom pays for everything for him. School,apartment and his social life of party. Yes he going have bright future.I hope he dose
But still unfair to me. That what I think. I am the one paying my mom rent. Have go school and work at the same time.
The only thing that make me happy is the sport HOCKEY. Best sport alive people. So I just go to my hockey games at night( four times a week and then come home. that all I do. Oh yeah and smoke weed.
Don't get me wrong. I have tons of friends. I actually do. But at the end of the day. I just want live my life and be happy and not worry. Bob Marley never told us that it is hard I be happy?
I just need some help of how to be depression free.
I NEED Motivation
Last thing I just need to find out who really am but it so hard when every thing keep going wrong.