Sometimes, when i am attracted to someone, i want to learn everything
This isn't all people who I develop an attraction to. It's some very specific people. When I say everything, I mean absolutely everything. In addition to the normal desires to learn more about their interests, dreams and experiences, I have stranger urges. I want to beg to see their medical records. I want to track their sleep schedules. I feel the temptation to install a key logger. Now, because I am a decent human being, I don't do these things. I often request for minor versions of very odd information ("Can I check your pulse?") as a way to cool down my intense desire to know them. I haven't to the full extent of my desire to know to someone who I feel this way about before, because of fear of making them uncomfortable. For me this isn't a control thing, so I'm not sure what it is.