Sometimes i just feel so empty

I think I can relate too.

I am coming through a long period of depression and am struggling with low self esteem, particularly around my appearance and abilities.

I recommend you see a professional. I've had semi-regular sessions with my school counsellor for 2 years now and they've been really helpful. the benefit is not always tangible or decipherable, but I've often come out on a high, focused on positives aspects of my life and with a plan to improve the bad aspects.

I had a best friend who I thought could relate to, but we became distant and now I don't speak to her anymore. I regret that - it's important to have friends and have a good relationship with your parents.

I hear you with the whole life-in-lyrics stuff. To be honest, I've stopped going for that. I find it depresses me further, gives me nothing positive. I prefer relaxing music now, classical, ambient, jazz... it helps to reduce the stress of low self esteem.

You talk about your sh*thole as a haven. I am in the exact same position. I think I'm safe at home. It's where I can be shit and it doesn't matter. It's dark and warm and safe. And that is very appealing when your mind is in a bad place.

I can't stress enough the benefits of leaving your house and doing things you enjoy. Meeting people you like and proving to yourself that you are just as capable as they are of having a normal conversation and navigating life, even it's just that day.

You have as much right to a life as anyone else.

If you don't want to go out with a friend, go out by yourself. Doing things solo is a great confidence booster and you're also not under peer pressure which can be stressful. Keep it simple, like a movie or a shopping trip or just a walk to clear your head like weepingwillow does.

And there's no point worrying about if you're bipolar or not. Wait until you see a professional and let them judge. Self diagnosis, for people enduring mental suffering, is a dangerous & unhelpful.

Maybe you'll be prescribed pills, maybe not.

Trust me, actions do more good than popping a pill.

Engineering good days won't always be possible. Certainly you must take your time and prepare yourself one day at a time. I've been having a crap month - I'm only positive and awake enough to offer you this advice because I'm going out to play some badminton tomorrow with some nice people who I haven't seen in a long time :)

Test the water when you spot an opportunity and hopefully it will give you a little boost. Small steps, yeah.

Good luck

Sounds sorta like bipolar disorder. I've had days when I'd be in school and felt like going into a corner and dying! I just want you to know that you're not alone w/this empty feeling inside and the questions that go w/it. Like why am I here? What is my purpose in life? And why do I have to live when some days I'd rather be dead. I know sounds extreme but there are people out there that are willing to listen to whatever you have to say and I'm one of them. Do therapy but please don't hurt yourself.

I feel this way all the time too. I dont like to feel like that though. Im not sure what should fill empty holes, trash just rots away in holes and dirt can easily be dug up again. Anything is breakable but when nothing is there you cnt break it, how confusing indeed.

That is a common feeling in high school. A lack of purpose and discovering existence is trivial sometimes when you don't have a passion yet. Be patient, and drugs help...

Sorry, I can't help...but I gotta say: I know! I'm like that too. What you say about your best friend and wanting to get away from humanity. Wondering if your bipolar. It could just be that you're beginning to figure yourself out.

As much as you say you want to be alone, this does seem like a cry for attention. You should get help. Talk to your doctor, and see if you can get referred to a counselor or psychologist. It is possible to enjoy your life again, so get to it!

i totally understand where ur comming from! sh*t feels like your taking a bullet sometimes and the only thing u have to cover it are fake smiles that only work as big band-aids. sometimes i just go for a quick run find i quiet spot and listen to music crying trying to figure out why in hell did i get stuck with the life i did or why am i not as pretty as the girls at school, or why my life isn't like a movie with a fairytale ending but at the end of each and everyday i grow stronger and i have to life with the deck im givien. now your probably wondering how on earth do u live with the sh*tty hand, but just foucus on the good u know? u have a family that loves u a bestfriend who doesn't backstab u like a lot of them do, and give and take, ur gonna do something with ur life.

now i am thinking
i got writers block give it a while

thanks guys, whoever you are im still confused. i would say im bi polar but so far every other condition youve come up with i have symptoms for so i dont know lol
i think i am whatever you think i am.
whatever i think you think i am

I know this may not be the place to say this but I couldn't help thinking it when I came across your story. I'm a Christian and I believe that God made everyone of us with a desire to be with him in our hearts. I also believe that when we feel empty, that this is him prompting us to look for him. Often we try and fill that emptiness with other people, movies, food, tv, books, alcohol, drugs, anything but I believe that the only way to feel whole is to start to get to know him through his word and his son Jesus. I've often felt how you have, especially after my father passed away, and I've found that just picking up a bible and reading some of the New Testement really helps me to feel whole again. It's your choice ultimately, but I think it would really help you.

i think you need to try be positive and happy