Social disconnection.

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Yesterday, I attended orientation at my college. There we met new people by being put into groups. We played games and activities such as board games, talking about our interests, the works.

I couldn't help but realize my social disconnection to so many of the people there. It all felt very forced and still distant. This being said, I never found myself to be a social person involving myself in large crowds of people wanting to interact with one another in such a way.

This was a two day process and I sound like such a wimp but I'm exhausted. It might have something to do with the fact that I got lost and walked around the entire campus but...the interactions with people felt like a lot of work.

WOW. I am so pathetic. But honestly...I don't understand how I could even attend a legitimate college party if I can't handle this? And by the way, I'm not saying that I want to do that in the future, because I'm pretty sure that I probably wouldn't be able to feel accepted and comfortable there.

Some might think, "you should do things that make you uncomfortable! make new choices!" and to a degree, I get that. But honestly, there are just some situations where I feel like I don't have to put myself out there just for the sake of being apart of the social normality.

Anyways, I just find myself mentally and physically exhausted from interacting with many strangers. Especially with those who don't seem to be interested in getting to know me well just because maybe I don't appear to be that extravagant externally. And the problem might very well be me, but I just find myself feeling disconnected from a lot of people. I tried pretty hard talking with people normally but we never really got to engage in real conversations.

Maybe I'm just not a party girl.

P.S. Overall, it was somewhat of a fun thing, don't get me wrong. It's just something I noticed within my thoughts of being a "quiet girl", as society would put it.

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  • mountain-man82
    9 years ago | pl

    Thats pretty normal. Not all people are complete extroverts. Just do things that make you comfortable, and maybe push the boundries little by little till you become more comfortable. Thats of course if you feel the need to attend college parties. They arent all theyre cracked up to be. If I were you, Id just be myself and if they dont like it, then fuck them. Not literally, lol.

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  • noid
    9 years ago

    It's normal you're just introverted.

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  • DoctorAngelDust
    9 years ago

    I get you, 100%. I was the exact same way in college. I was a former, lifelong foster kid on financial aid and a scholarship while working as a waiter in some shitty restaurant that was later shut down because the water damage collapsed and the place was condemned. I lived in a shitty one bedroom in the shittiest part of town and associating with the shittiest people.

    When I went to college, I was among people who were from way better backgrounds than I was, driving nicer cars, wearing nicer clothes. They were all above me and I had no interest even talking to them because we could not relate. Even when I did have to speak to them, it was extremely exhausting because I would have to carefully choose my language so I don't offend them, shock them or repulse them (and trust me, I DID slip up!).

    I did not stop being this way until I started going to graduate school and made connections with people who had a lot of the same goals (and surprisingly, hardships) as I did. When I got into a good environment, my attitude completely changed. It may or may not happen for you but there is no real need to be ashamed of your social behavior if you're respectful to others.

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  • gashlover
    9 years ago

    when you talk to these people just imagine them naked. try to guess if they're shaved or natural. imagine them bent over and sucking on your goods.

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